Goddess-Isis-Moon

2007-01-25T09:23:00.000-08:00

I wanted to let My readers know that My blogger has moved.
My new blog can be found here

New Blogger

Thank Y/you to all who understand that life is a journey constantly changing!

2007-01-19T19:12:00.000-08:00

I need a break.
My heart is aching and I just need a break

I will write... when I can.

2007-01-12T05:57:00.001-08:00

I am the type of person that does not wait several days to get things done. If it has to be done then I do it all in one strike. My not sitting here changing My blogger name and email is just about to drive Me completely up the wall. Yet, it is so time consuming that I have not wanted to sit here and do it. Alas, I saw GA go nuts doing it yesterday. Yes, it was a short trip for Her but you get the point :)

I feel a bit lost lately. As if I am wandering around somewhere in the dark searching. What I am searching for I am unsure of. So, My blogger has not been a very exciting one. I am still amazed people come to visit at all! I am pretty boring.
The rut, although one that is not impossible to get out of still leaves Me feeling a bit empty.

Usually with the Waning Moon I don't usually feel this way. I seem to always feel refreshing and ready to conquer most anything.

I had one of those dreams last night that when you wake leave you feeling as if it trying happened. The kind where you wake up in a sweat and have to orientate yourself to the surroundings as you are not sure exactly where you are. It was always one of those that were quite vivid and even when you wake you still feel at that place, in that moment.

I was in a lovely little coffee shop that I seemed to know fairly well. Although I am not sure where exactly it is. It was streaming with beautiful light coming through the windows. The walls a very rich brown color, highlighted with rusty hues. I remember it having almost a middle eastern flare. Even the smell was rich.

I was sitting on a beautiful sofa, reading a book, sipping a cup of coffee and the shop was filled with beautiful boys coming to My every whim. GA was with Me and We were laughing and giggling as friends do. Having a wonderful time. All the sudden the coffee shop door swung open, it grew dark and everything was sucked out from underneath Me. As if someone had turned on a huge vaccum cleaner and everything was cleaned out. I woke up in a dead sweat.

So, as anyone could have guessed it has left My mood this morning as feeling a bit exhausted. I think that we all move so fast in life that we forget that they world will still keep spinning around us even if we stop, just for a moment or two to take sometime and really dive into someone else, something else that we don't normally know. Why do we do that? Why do we rush so quickly through everything and just not stop? Just stopping for a moment to view the world around us?

I think that is something we all need to work on.

Goddess Moon

2007-01-11T06:36:00.000-08:00

Sighs

What do I say?

My mood is very out there this morning. For many different reasons I suppose. Just sort of down, tired and depressed. I suppose it is because of everything happening.

Yet, what I would not give to be cuddled this morning.

2007-01-08T06:07:00.000-08:00

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My heart is breaking just a little bit this morning. More then a little bit but I don't confess too much.
A very good friend of Mine passed away early this morning and My heart feels a bit heavy.

For many years I worked in the Hospice, Nursing home and assisted living field. Taking care of those who could no longer take care of themselves. Over those years, one becomes close to many who have already lived this life and are simply waiting to enter their next. As I worked in high school at a local nursing home. Working toward My Medical Administration licence, I met a beautiful woman named Nadine. She was in the assisted living wing and once I received My degree and moved forward (An hour and a half away from home), her family put her in the facility that I was working in. All of her family lived in TX and for Me they were very much My extended family once I went to college. After returning home I would visit her three times a week. When I met her she was very well. Slightly forgetting things as in taking her medicine on time, where she left her car, turning off the stove. So an assisted living was the best thing for her. As time moved on, she lost her memories, her body but never her soul.

When I began working at the Nursing home at 15, I would bring her home for Sunday dinners and holidays that her family could not attend. She was, as she called it, My Guardian Grandmother. Mine had passed when I was young and She and My grandmother were friends. In fact they came over to America together.

I received a panicked phone call at 1:45am this morning. Nadine, who had had a stroke in the night took a turn for the worst.
In a quiet voice I heard her daughter Bee say "It's time"

I grabbed some clothes and in the car I went. Hoping that the two hour drive did not leave Me hoping I would have driven faster to make it to her passing.

Thankfully I was quick enough and walked into a dim lit room with this beautiful Woman of 83 laying there lifeless. Her daughter simply nodded to Me and I did what I was supposed to do. Nadine and I talked many an hour about this moment. She had been ready long ago. Her husband died 12 years before and once her mind started to go, she no longer wanted to be a soul on the earth. I tried many times to not talk about it but she wanted Me to be fully aware what she had told her children and what she expected out of Me once this time had come.

I did her hair the way she told Me too. I put her makeup on exactly the way she wore it.
Dressed her in her finest dress and sat beside her.
Her favorite song light sang in her ear over and over again until she finally let go. I kept My end of the promise and an hour later, She went to heaven.

I didn't cry. Not there anyway. I promised her that I would be strong for her children (whom are 30 years older then I). I was strong, I did what she wanted Me to do.

The drive took Me longer then I thought to get home. I am not sure how many times I pulled over to sob. Making it impossible to drive. I will miss her more then words could ever say.

So Nadine, you were dressed pretty, looked pretty, smelled pretty and sang to heaven. Make sure you prop a brick in for Me because I may have some trouble getting in!

Lyrics to your favorite song
You have loved lots of girls in the sweet long-ago
And each has meant heaven to you
You have vowed your affection to each one in turn
And have sworn to them all you'd be true
You have kissed 'neath the moon while the world seemed in tune,
Then you've left her to hunt a new game.
Does it ever occur to you later my boy, that she's prob'ly doing the same?

If you want to feel wretched and lonely and blue,
Just imagine the girl you love best
In the arms of some fellow who's stealing a kiss
From the lips that you once fondly pressed
But the world moves apace and the loves of today
Flit away with a smile and a tear,
So you can never tell who's kissing her now
Or just whom you'll be kissing next year.

I wonder who's kissing her now, I wonder who's teaching her how,
I wonder who's looking into her eyes, breathing sighs, telling lies.
I wonder who's buying the wine for lips that I used to call mine.
I wonder if she ever tells him of me, I wonder who's kissing her now.

Blessed be
Moon

2007-01-03T13:38:00.000-08:00

Is it is possible for Me to hibernate through the winter? How nice it would be to do so, yet I don't want to have to do all the necessary things to get ready to sleep that long!

Last night was a night without sleep. Nothing in particular happened to make it impossible for Me to rest yet, sleep did not come. I am hoping that tonight My body will just give in and it will happen early. It is annoying to look at the clock and see that time has not moved. 1:30am, 2:45am, 3:15am, 4:37am and finally at 5:29am I gave up and got up. I took a bath, read, watched some info thingy on a ladder. Amazed at how much crap people will try to sell you. When are they going to have "The Domme Network"? Were Dommes Shop for Domme things all day long. Hmm... I may have to launch that idea. Now even I would watch that.

All Domme All the time!

Not much exciting going on here. Doing some cleaning up from the holidays that should have been done before they hit. Yet, alas I find Myself catching up on them now.

I am in the mood for some pampering. Some red wine, some sushi. A good movie perhaps?
Something lovely for just Me.
Any takers?

2007-01-01T19:24:00.000-08:00

Is it really a brand, spankin' new year already?

I wonder where on earth the year has gone. It seems like just yesterday the last new year was upon Me and here yet again time has proven to keep on rolling by. I am yet, another year older, another year wiser and another year... older! I was not sure if I mentioned that or not.

I could sit here and be the one that sugar coats everything that is written here, yet that is not Me.

My Sadistic urges are getting the best of Me and I feel as if I am wandering around somewhere between sanity and insanity. Although, I am not sure that being in that place is a bad place to be. I tend to gravitate to that realm and the people that roam there as well. I am not one who believes in hiding yourself, your true nature from anyone but with the holidays and family creeping around every corner I have felt extremely stifled. Almost as if I am suffocating. Don't get Me wrong, it has been lovely having everyone home for Christmas and the New year but it has proven to be quite hard. All of My books are turned around, I don't have nearly as much time to focus My meditation, do any type of ritual or speak to the ones I need to. So it has made Me feel a bit off kilter. Yet, with all of My complaining they will be going home this weekend and then it will once again be too quiet in this home.

I have always been one that deals on a schedule. Although at times I am a "Fly by the seat of My pants" type girl, normally on a day to day I deal with things as they come. Making sure things run as smoothly as possible. I think I have to be that way because My day is so full that if I don't do that everything spills over.

I took a long hot bath this afternoon and that seemed to help a bit. Of course it was not nearing as long as I would have liked but none the less I did get a bit of time alone.

I have been talking over the last month or so about changing My blogger name to one that suits Me best for this moment. I still plan on doing that, yet I want to make perfectly clear that Isis agrees with what I am speaking of. To most, this is strange. I understand that fully well but to those that do understand, they know the dire need to move things along. It is not as if I will be struck by lightening, yet I want to be respectful and not wear out My welcome.

I have been wanting some of Maya Angelou's writings. Each and every time I want into Barnes and Noble (My favorite store BTW) I always gravitate to her section. Yet, like any other Mother out there We tend to not do those types of things for ourselves. Rather, We buy something that We "need" and not want. There is one poem written by Her that I throughly enjoy. It is based on Discrimination and although I am not the "normal" type of person that gets hit by it, I still understand it being that My views even in the D/s realm are so different from everyone else's. I won't post the whole poem but will give you a taste of its beauty.

Still I Rise
by: Maya Angelou
Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

She is such a beautiful Woman.  These are some of the books that I am wanting
to read this year.
If anyone knows of a good discount bookstore, please pass the information
on through.
I have posted a few other books that I would like to look into. 
I probably should have asked for more books for Christmas
but then it raises a few flags in why I want the books that I do. 
My family is just plum Nosy.  The list goes from
top priority.

*Dictionary of the Gods and Goddess--Micheal Jordan*
*The book of Gods and Goddesses--Eric Chanline*
*The complete collected poems of Maya Angelou*
*2007 Witches Wall calender*
*The red haired girl from the bog--Patricia Monaghan*
*Dark Moon Rising--Raven Kaldera*


Anyway there are just a few.  I have a list somewhere
and will have to dig it out.
I hope Everyone has had a good New Years!

Blessed be,
Goddess Moon

2006-12-29T18:41:00.000-08:00

A D/s relationship is deeper then any other type of relationship out there. We trust deeper, love deeper and play deeper. Therefore when a D/s relationship ends the heartbreak can sometimes feel almost feel like the end of the world. A very good Domme friend of Mine, Cami, had been in a long term relationship with Her slave for exactly three years. he was under a lifetime contract and from the outside looked as if everything was beautiful with him. When in fact clearly it wasn't. They split a few days ago in a way that was not exactly kosher.

he had been lying to Her for the last year of their relationship. he was seeing a Pro-Domme on the side (This pro-domme was providing sex) because Cami has been undergoing Kemo for cancer of the lymph glands. Of course cheating would hurt anyone but a D/s cheating digs deeper then a vanilla one ever could.

So this post is to Cami. Know that I love You and know that it will get better. I heard this song to day and You of course came to mind. You are stronger then you know. he is just one of many.
I am here for You when You need Me. I won't press but You always know that I am a phone call, a drive, a bed away. If You need to drink, snuggle or simply cry You know My number Laverne. All You have to do is call Me.

"Irreplaceable"

To the left
To the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, that's my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, baby, please don't touch

And keep talking that mess, thats fine
Could you walk and talk, at the same time?
And it's my name thats on that jag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
Call up that chick, and see if shes home
I bet you thought, that I didn't know
What did you think
I was putting you out for?
Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby, drop them keys
Hurry up, before your taxi leaves

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable

So since I'm not your everything
How about I'll be nothing
Nothing at all to you
Baby I won't shed a tear for you
I won't lose a wink of sleep
'Cause the truth of the matter is
Replacing you is so easy
To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left.
Everything you own in the box to the left
To the left, to the left.
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute
You can pack all your bags we're finished
'Cause you made your bed now lay in it
I could have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable

Karma is a bitch Girly. Remember that.
Love You,
Shirley

2006-12-28T08:29:00.000-08:00

Illuminating.

1.	to supply or brighten with light; light up.

2.	to make lucid or clear; throw light on (a subject).

3.	to decorate with lights, as in celebration.

4.	to enlighten, as with knowledge.

5.	to make resplendent or illustrious: A smile illuminated her face.

6.	to decorate (a manuscript, book, etc.) with colors and gold or silver, as was often done in the Middle Ages.

–verb (used without object)

A friend of Mine described Me as that last night. I was flattered. Such a beautiful word. If I close My eyes and think about that word, it brings Me to a beautiful cabin in the middle of the woods. I am standing on the porch with a lantern high in the air. The cold December wind is ripping through the trees, howling as beautiful as a bell and all I can see is as far as the lantern shines.

I think we all need a light to guide us. Both Dominants and submissives have searched at some point, some of us still searching. It is a feeling of safety knowing that there is someone out there that holds that candle so that we may find our way home. Some of us get lost along the way. Some of us want to get lost along the way. Dipping into those realms that are darker then most. I enjoy the dark, yet I also enjoy knowing that I can find My way home.

I suppose all of My life I have been a lantern in one way or another. Guiding those around Me in most area's of life. I enjoy that role. It fills My heart knowing that I can be a guide, a light for those around Me.

I have spent My fair share of time in the light and My far share of time in the dark. I enjoy the darker realms. Places that very few will venture. Perhaps that is where My dislike of crowded spaces comes. Not as many people wandering around in the dark as in the light. My dark side, My Sadistic side, The side that most people do not find the "norm" of SSC is what drives Me. It is what makes My mouth water and My heart beat a bit faster. I have never went with the grain, stayed inside the lines. I was always the kid that colored the sky purple, the grass blue. Why see things the way they are? What not color life up a bit different then everyone else does?

Don't run with scissors. Why not? If you are careful, all fine.

Life is full of trial and error. Why worry about failing before you even start? If you do that you have failed right off the bat. So many of us don't realize that if we just let go there will be someone to hold our hand. There will be someone behind us to catch the fall. A shoulder to lean one when we are taken to places that most will never venture.

I wait for you.
I don't know why.
all I know is I can't hide.
at this temperature you could take over my mind.
like gossamer, you softly touch.
you draw me in,I'm powerless.
You possess an enchantment.
You call, don't know how I fell under Her spell.
I've been driven. you smile, an enchantment.

I wait for you.
I'm mesmerized this love is like a potion in disguise.
I'd tightrope walk with a blindfold on my eyes.
I can't escape, or so it seems.
I'd run away,Your in my dreams.
She possess an enchantment.

it's the kind of sleepwalk that never ends.
a type of loan with no dividends.
it's a game where you're given chase.
guess it could be called an acquired taste.
you know, I know, I call ,You go, i know.
this could be an enchantment.

Goddess Moon

2006-12-27T07:33:00.000-08:00

What a busy holiday!

I swore that I would write before the holidays started yet that proved to be harder then I thought it would be. It seems as if things are not slowing down either. Which is a nice welcomed busy but still over all busy.

Santa of course was very good to Me. Then again I am and have been such a good Girl! I can hear Ya'll laughing and coughing from over here. Knock it off.

It does not matter how wonderful My holidays were, I always get very down afterwards. Of course that wonderful monthly time does not help either. I am one bitchy Domme. So to those that are in constant contact with Me, a word of advice.
Tread a bit lighter then usual.

We did not have a White Christmas here. That in itself would make anyone pissed off. For anyone who knows Me, knows that I thrive on the cold and the snow. Alas no luck.

So I thought I would post this picture with My blog this time. Looks sort of nice, since I can't have snow this will do.

2006-12-20T05:44:00.000-08:00

It seems like forever since I have written here. When, in fact it has been awhile. Although I love this time of year, it does keep Me quite a bit busy. Not that My life is not always a busy run around but it has been more busy then normal.

I have family coming in from out of town tomorrow and from here on out things will be busier then even I can keep up with. Looking forward to it.

Ordered a new leather paddle about a month ago and finally got it yesterday. I love the company but they take too long to ship. It is fairly large across and has five holes in the paddle part. It is stiff now but I am sure someday will be worked through! It will loosen up once it hits a bottom or two. I also bought a pair of the cutest brown leather boots the other day. I sooo need to get a good digital camera to take a picture. They have a 3 inch heel and a square toe. Very comfy.

I wish I could sit here and have a lot to say. Alas, I don't.
Yet, I will make sure to write before the holidays come rolling around.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-12-12T08:03:00.000-08:00

I loved this picture. There was something in it and about it that made Me take a deep breath in. A slave peeking out the window. Knowing it is only he and I.

My mood is very docile this morning.

I know that I have a million and one things to conquer yet I am not doing any of them and My guess is that I won't accomplish them until I really, really have to.

That darkness stirring inside of My head. Making it near impossible to focus My mind on anything else. So I am just taking the time to relish in those thoughts. That aching and stirring deep down inside of My gut. Making Me look at things differently, take a deeper breathe and devour those thoughts as often as I can.

There is nothing more beautiful then seeing light through the darkness. It is even more beautiful when you can see the darkness through the light. Many know not of what I speak. Most do not understand. Yet, for those that have sat inside the darkness they understand very well.

My sadistic urges are screaming out as well this morning. What I would not give for a few swings of the flogger. I do not even think it is the craving of it that I need so badly but the chance to let go of some of the frustration that is bubbling within My gut.

I heard this song today and felt the need to post it.

Under the ruins of a walled city

Crumbling towers and beams of yellow light

No flags of truce, no cries of pity

The siege guns had been pounding all through the night

It took a day to build the city

We walked through its streets in the afternoon

As I returned across the field's I'd known

I recognized the walls that I once made

I had to stop in my tracks for fear

Of walking on the mines I'd laid



And if I built this fortress around your heart

Encircled you in trenches and barbed wire

Then let me build a bridge

For I cannot fill the chasm

And let me set the battlements on fire



Then I went off to fight some battle

That I'd invented inside my head

Away so long for years and years

You probably thought or even wished that I was dead

While the armies are all sleeping

Beneath the tattered flag we'd made

I had to stop in my track for fear

Of walking on the mines I'd laid



And if I built this fortress around your heart

Encircled you in trenches and barbed wire

Then let me build a bridge

For I cannot fill the chasm

And let me set the battlements on fire



This prison has now become your home

A sentence you seem prepared to pay

It took a day to build the city

We walked through its streets in the afternoon

As I returned across the lands I'd known

I recognize the fields where I'd once played

I had to stop in my tracks for fear

Of walking on the mines I'd laid



And if I built this fortress around your heart

Encircled you in trenches and barbed wire

Then let me build a bridge

For I cannot fill the chasm

And let me set the battlements on fire

Goddess Isis Moon

2006-12-09T18:46:00.000-08:00

Anyone who knows Me, knows that I am not a person who enjoys confrontation. I have always been more of a lover and not a fighter. Yet, today has proved that there are just sometimes that words can do much more then fists ever could. I also am never one to air My laundry but felt that this little bit I must. I believe it shows how ignorant people are about the realm of BDSM.

The day started out lovely. Did some holiday things and enjoyed Myself. As I was in one of the many stores that I walked into today I spotted someone who I would rather have not. My ex sister in law, whom I never got along with walked up to Me as if I was her best friend. I was polite. Answered the questions that she asked Me and went about My business trying to mark off My list of "Had to buy".

As I was then walking out of the store she says...
"I have a gift for you for the holiday, so I am going to swing by your house later"

I again, polite as could be answered.
"Lisa, I would rather you not. We have never really gotten along and I do not wish to start now"

She answered with a growl and an OK.

Let Me give you a bit of background.

She was the first person to be a constant questioning source about the way I live My life. Others come into My home, see Wicca books. See S/M books and books about Domination. No one questions it. My neighbors (Which are not near) never look twice when new people come into town or into My driveway. No one has come to Me and asked why I do the things that I do. Her questioning was not the problem. For I am more then happy to answer any questions that anyone may have with the way that I live My life. Her "questions", if they can even be called that where more attacks and remarks made to others in the family, strangers or outsiders.
When her and My brother in law divorced was when the shit started to truly hit the fan.
For Her prior stunts were simply icing on the cake.

She started to send Me filthy pictures, newspaper articles about "alternative lifestyles" (which usually meant someone going to the ER with a cucumber in the ass), letters that she wished to send to everyone that she knew. All of those things were fine with Me. Send anything you want. I am not, never have been and never will be ashamed of Me or the people around Me.

So, I returned home and within 30 minutes of My arriving home She pulled in the driveway. Had I not been outside unloading gifts out of My car I would have never answered the door. Without My inviting her in, she enters My home.

"Here" She growls throwing the gift at Me.

Politely again I say "No thank you"

Then it starts....

Her--
" I know all about you. I know that you do strange sexual things to men, that you practice witchcraft and that you live a lifestyle that is not acceptable."

Me--
"Not acceptable to who? you?"

Her--
"Not acceptable to the world. I know you are bi sexual too, which is just sick. You are leading your kids to the path of destruction."

Me-- (Now in her face)
"Don't you ever and I mean ever come into My home again, tell Me how to raise My kids or that My lifestyle is not acceptable. My kids are beautiful. What I do behind closed doors is not their business nor yours."

Her-- (Backing up)
"I know all about you and you are just sick"

Me--(Almost standing on top of her)
Her--(Tears start and She starts to stutter)

Me--
"Is there a problem Lisa? It looks almost if you may pee in your undies right now. You see, that is something that I would have a slave to just to embarrass him. Do you want to be embarrassed?"

Her--(Full tears)
"See you are sick"

Me--(Her face cradled extremely tight in My hand, Me pulling Her ponytail back as far as I can)
"Why thank you Lisa. For that is a compliment to Me. Now, My advice if you ever call Me, come to My house or even breathe in the direction of Me or My children, I will make your life a living hell. After all, that is My job."

Her--
"I understand. I don't know what I was thinking and I promise to never come here again."

Me--(Kissing her square on the lips) **Just to watch her gag of course**
"Good girl, now go"

I stood there for a moment and watched her drive away. I did not feel a sense of Dominance, yet I sense of sadness. Sad that there are so many people like her in the world that truly do not understand that D/s is not about sex. It is not about torture or whips. Yet, embodies the deepest love and commitment that vanilla people will never ever achieve. I felt sorry for her. Sorry that her life is so boring, so sad that she felt the need to come and needle into Mine.

I am very careful about what My children hear. What they see and what they know. I am as open with them as I can be, as they are still very young. Yet, I want them to understand that even though someone is not what the world considers "normal", they are okay. It is what makes them special. It is what makes them..... real.

Blessings,
Goddess Moon

2006-12-02T10:40:00.000-08:00

I am not exactly sure why I feel so down today. Perhaps, some of it has to do with lack of sleep lately. I seem to be only getting about 2 hours at a time and hopefully when I hit the doctors on Tuesday, they can help a bit. Tis finally cold outside and winter is settling in. Nothing in the word makes Me happier then the cold and wind. Not gonna write much just thought I would say a few words..... So... A few words. Will write later until then Asta Pasta Goddess Moon

2006-11-28T07:49:00.000-08:00

As I was going through some computer files and disks I found some old writings. I was shocked when I looked through some of them. Most are after old heartbreaks. I will post a few.

These were written at 21-23

I rummage around for myself
Wondering what I have become
Searching for the answers
That seem to never come

Unzip my mind and allow myself to grieve
Grieve the past and full steam ahead to the future
He is not mine, he has never been mine to have
I peel back the unknowing surface

And find myself
Unbind myself
Remind myself
That I am worth it

you suddenly turns sour in my mouth
I shake my head in confusion as to what I did
Giving everything I had
To get nothing in return

Yet my hands quake and my throat swallows hard
At the thought of moving on
Ah---yes moving on
The only way I will be able to live

And I find myself
Unbind myself
Remind myself
I can make it

You threw me into the middle of the fire
Your life out of control, I stuck my head in the middle to be a distraction
My head rolled to the other side of the room
And blood landed on your 500 dollar suit.

I even had the knowledge to hand you a hankie to tidy it up
Just like me, feeling ghastly even at my own destruction
My body falling apart at my feet
you never interrupt to see if I am alive

Now I have found myself
I have unbound myself
And I remind myself
I AM WORTH IT!
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Strike me--I do not feel
Kick me--My sense are down
Harm me--I have no heart
Manipulate me--You are paying attention at least
Lie to me--The only talk you know
Kiss me--The sweetest taste is the one of death
Fuck me--You made me feel that is all I am worth
Batter me--Maybe the blood vessels will give me sensation
Curse me--at least you will show emotion
Bellow at me--You will be talking
Snub me-------Wait, you are doing that already

Oh how things change. Funny how I know it was clearly after a heartbreak, yet I do not remember when, who or how!

2006-11-27T07:52:00.000-08:00

Rub your hands quickly together for 30 seconds then pull them apart.

Do they tingle?
Feel hot?

That is energy. Now do it again and then focus on the energy going between your left palm to your right palm.

Energy.

Magick is that.
Energy.
Feeling that energy between your two hands can not be denied. you feel it, it is there.

I am not entirely sure why in this world, this realm of "kinky" people W/we feel the need to bicker back and forth. I am not one that follows anything. I was born and raised catholic and there are still some beliefs in the catholic faith that I agree with. I study Wicca, Paganism, Witchcraft, herbalism, Fung Shui. That does not make Me much different from anyone else. There are aspects of each and every that I hold under My soul and believe in. Some aspects of each, I don't.
I don't believe in certain political views, certain aspects of each religion, ect. Yet, I like to keep those things to Myself. I don't need to change anyones mind about anything. I believe in what I believe in and that is simply that.
Me.

I may disagree, show My views and voice them but I NEVER disrespect anyone elses thoughts upon it. W/we all believe what W/we want to. That is what makes the world a wonderful place and a place that has a billion different type of people in it.

Respect is a wonderful thing and shows what type of person someone is. I know as a Dominant Woman that if My submissive shot off at the mouth to someone that should be respected, he would be whipped. Severely. he is a reflection of Me and I will not ever allow him to give Me a bad name in any light. Online or offline.

2006-11-21T07:40:00.000-08:00

Oh things have just been too busy around here for My own good. Although I must admit I enjoy the full house and am a huge fan of the holidays. I like to stay busy so having everyone around, dealing with the hustle and bustle is a welcome for Me.

Even with all the busy family around Me, My Sadistic side is aching to get out. It has been awhile since I have laid My thick and heavy hand on someone and am looking forward to the day that I am able to. Not to say that I am not Sadistic all the time, there are just times where it is more upfront and times when the need is heavier then others. I can not deny the dreams that I have had are very raw, rough and hard. I know that the ache will grow stronger and stronger until I am able to allow it to seep into someone else. Some of the thoughts in My head are extremely dark and thoughts I would not readily tell anyone. Most would be surprised at times the thoughts that plague My mind and ache in My belly. I believe it would be considered "scary" to some but has never been scary to Me. For Me it is and has always been a welcome point in My life. Getting others on board... now that is the tricky part.

I have always and will always be known as going against the grain. Safe words for example. In My 12 years I have never had a slave use them. I don't give them and don't believe that they need to be there. For some... perahaps. For some.. a must. Yet, I read people very, very well. I take someone as far as I want to go. I am very good at telling how far I can take someone and when it is time to stop. Does that slave know those safe words that are the normal.. Green, Yellow and red? Of course... yet there has never been a need to use them. I am sure I will get many comments for it and that is okay. I know what works for Me and Mine and that is what matters most to Me.

A blast from the past came through into My life recently. A good blast of course. An old friend whom I have not talked to in quite awhile. It is funny how some people lose contact and have nothing to say, then their are others whom pick up where they left off. It has been nice learning about what has been going on in life since we last spoke.

Today is spent at home. Entertaining family and baking My Domme Ass off. I must admit that I could use the help today or even a nap would be nice!

Blessings!
Goddess Moon

2006-11-18T19:38:00.000-08:00

The above picture was so lovingly sent by nyte. It is Goddess Athena a picture that he sent a few days ago to brighten My day. It was so lovely I wanted to post it for A/all to see.

As most know, I have family in from out of town this week for Thanksgiving. So far, it has turned out to be quite the weekend.

Other then the "What are all these herbs for? You are practice Witchcraft aren't you? Does your mother know?" "Why do You have a lot of black leather? Why do You have a lot of boots?".

Aside from all those million questions things are going very well.

I have wanted to sit down and write about the Goddess that has come to Me, yet I just don't have the time until all is quiet here. I do enjoy the hustle and bustle of family. Thankfully W/we are all very close and having T/them here does not pose too much of a problem.

I love the Bridgeman art gallery. I enjoy hours spent looking through all the old pieces of art and seeing real Women being seen as that... Women. Ever notice how They are not tiny stick figures? They are real Women, with real bodies. Curves and what most consider fat or imperfect. On that note I wanted to post a few of My favorites.

I am not sure that I enjoy the new template layout. With the new name and blogger change I will be looking around for something that I enjoy better. If A/any of My readers come across something that T/they think I would like let Me know.

Blessed be

2006-11-16T19:51:00.000-08:00

I have been wanting to sit and seriously write for sometimes but it seems just when I think I have the time to do so, something comes up and I never quite get the moment.

I spent sometime last night in meditation. Made a beautiful fresh insense of Caramon, juniper, fengreek and White willow bark. I use Willow a lot in My insense, homemade candles, lotions and perfume oils. It is the tree of the Goddess. It gives off a beautiful musky smell. As I laid in bed I lite My Silver candle (also Goddess) and closed My eyes. Chanting over and over again for the answer to My question.

Goddess make me see
The journey that is in front of Me
Show Me where I should start
Find the journey that is in My heart

After knoting My rope 10 times and chanting 10 as well, something came over Me. My ears plugged, My eyes began to well up. I found it hard to breath and soon I was asleep. She came to Me. She came to Me with the knowledge of what path I am to take. She was beautiful, breathtaking and kind. I shall write upon that in the next few days as I have family coming in for the Thanksgiving holiday and will have to really take the time to sit and explain.

Speaking of Willow Trees... I believe My Mother thinks that I have perhaps lost it. In the back of My Mother and fathers home (which I grew up in) was a beautiful willow tree. It had been there before I was born and each animal that had died was placed under that tree to settle. Tomorrow it is scheduled to be cut down as it is rotting from the inside out and will soon be falling over anyhow. Yet, I was amazed how truely saddened I was by knowing that it would no longer be there. I think that I was sad on many different levels. It was a mirror of My childhood, as I would go hide under it during hide and seek. Its branches kissing the ground ever so softly. As a teenager, when life just got to hard I would sit under it to write hours in the many journals I filled during those years. The many pets that layed to rest, the hours running around it when My daughter was toddling around. And now. The Goddess. Knowing that She was that weeping willow tree all those years looking after Me. I went out to spent some well needed time with Her before She was taken away. Hugging Her, Thanking Her, talking to Her.

As I said.. I believe My Mother thought I had spilled My marbles.

The upcoming holidays are flying around the corner. I enjoy them but do not enjoy the busy bee syndrome that comes a long with them. I tend to do a lot of meditation during this time. Perhaps I could get away with being in an astral state for the next 2 months.

As with anyone that does Magick faithfully, they know that if one speaks of a spell that was cast it will be muffled by others thoughts. So in explaining that I want that Someone to know that She will be fine. I called for the correct Animal Protecting Goddess to help with the problem. I will do it every week until She is better. That You have My word on.

My family comes in tomorrow afternoon. Half are staying with My Mom and Dad, the other half with Me. (I hope the good half). I hated that My library suddenly got smaller as the D/s books and the Wiccan books were either taken down or turned around. To them, I am still the Good catholic girl they all know and love. Easier to just leave well enough a lone. Yet, I have My own thoughts about those that are "whipped" in other people's eyes.

The Annie Leibowitz Newest Photography book is now out. Something on My Christmas list. She is a beautiful photographer, yet the picture She took of John Lennon and Yoko the same day that he passed is one of the most beautiful photos I have ever seen. Not that I see it for its "Beatles" memory, I see it more in the beautiful D/s quality it has it in. For those that have not seen it...
Yoko is laying on her back.
Black sweater and jeans.
Her hair is falling all around her.
John is laying to her right.
On his side, curled against her naked.
Vulnerable.
Knowing that she holds the key.

It truely is one of My top 10 favorite pictures.

Alright.. I am going to talk to nyte for a few more moments and I am off to bed.

Goddess Isis Moon
**Blogger name and place soon to change**

2006-11-15T08:04:00.000-08:00

I looked and saw it really has been a while since I have written here. Usually I do not go that many days and not write. Perhaps Mercury is fucking with Me, the way it is fucking with GA.

Things are going very well in My life right now, although I feel that they are busier then ever. As if I am in a fog trying to look through.

My dreams have been strange, telling and overall quite real lately. I believe it has to do with My journey into My past lives and where I must go from here. Which thankfully through those dreams things are becoming a bit clearer then they have been.

Anyway.. not a lot of time this morning to write.
Will finish later.

2006-11-08T07:09:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to Me! I turn 29 at 2:38 pm and I sit here looking back on all the things that have made My 29 years up.

I had a beautiful childhood, beautiful parents and a beautiful past. It seems so strange to Me that, that much time has passed already. I am not where I thought I would be at this time in My life. Things are better, the outlook good. I am glad that I have been through the obstacles and look forward to at least 50 more years of it.

I am lucky to have a wonderful family, children and some of the most beautiful friends in the world. I am blessed to have a soul Sister whom I am connected to. I have things most people will never find and today I feel very lucky. Sad that it takes certain days for U/us to realize it.

Anyhow... Happy birthday to Me

2006-11-07T19:54:00.000-08:00

I have always found it to be funny when people come and go so quickly on and off the internet. You are in contact with them for months at a time and then one day, they are gone as quickly as they came. I have and will always be a firm believer that everyone comes into your life for a reason but sometimes you have to wonder why you came into theirs.

I tend to pour Myself into people, I always have. It has always be very important to Me to do just that. I like that about Me and would not change that for the world, yet it does allow Me to be seeping open a bit more then normal people. Allows Me to become closer when I want to.

Today has been one of those days when everything seems to go wrong. Nothing major, nothing to write home in tears about, just one of those days when everything surrounding you seems a bit off.

First thing this morning---Coffee pot set to brew at 5:30am. Awoke at 5:45 to find coffee and grounds all over My kitchen counter and floor. **Not Good**

Not a good way to start then day for this coffee lover.

My mood seems to be a bit all over the place today. Tonight is clearly no expection. Feelings are stirring deeply within Me that have not come up to the surface for quite sometime. I like it. It scares Me. I need it and I am enjoying it.

When W/we met light was shed
Thoughts free flow
you said you have something
Deep inside of you
A windchime sound
Sway of your hips
Rings true.
These secret garden beems
Changed My life so it seems
A fall breeze blows outside
I don't break stride for many
thoughts are warm
They will go deep inside of you
I can go nowhere
I burn candles
Stare
At a ghost deep inside of Me
Some great need
Starts to bleed
I want to be deep inside of you.

Anywho...
My birthday is tomorrow... I am growing old.

Blessings,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-11-04T20:08:00.000-08:00

Goddess A was talking about Mercury in Retrograde today on the board and how when it is in Retro that everything turns to shit in Her realm. For Me once the New Moon hits everything turns to putty in My world. I am not really sure why, as you would think refreshing oneself would come with the New Moon and usually it works that way. Yet, for Me it is the exact opposite. Of course, I have never been one to "Travel with the grain", so I am not shocked.

I have been studing both Bohemian/Slavic Paganism and the Celtic Realm in great detail. As I have stated before Goddess Isis has been My patron saint. She came to Me years ago in one dream after another. Allowing Me to walk the path with Her and learn the things that I needed to learn. Recently, within the last month or so she has again showed Herself very clearly to Me. The spoken truth of Her journey with Me and that She is now done with that journey. That I must move on to bigger things. Things that She no longer can hold My hand on. Whispering to Me that I must find My way without Her and with another.

So that is why I am taking the time and energy to study My roots. As I have talked many a day to GA about, I am at a bit of a stand still. Between a rock and a hard place. What path to take, what to choose. I have meditated within both realms and know in My heart where I should go. Yet, It is My head that is turning the tricks on Me. My grandfather and his family were from Bohemia. My grandmother and her family were from Ireland. At a young age My grandmother's family moved to Bohemia then a decade later to the US.

Within My family all were Female Led Relationships. My grandmother died when I was 8 and looking back, going through papers and journals once the estate sale came through I now know with 100% certaintly that she too was a Witch. To research those things, to see Her writing on paper made My eyes well up. To know that I was and am not alone in My Witchy ways makes it easier to understand.

So anyway, that is what is going on with Me. Nothing extremely exciting.

Blessings,
GIM

Artwork in Bridgemen art library
Getty Images

2006-10-31T20:28:00.000-08:00

Getting ready to do My cermonial rituals for All Souls Day and the Witches New year fairly soon but wanted to sit and write quickly.

I will be doing some meditation, drawing down the moon and making sure I list My hopes for the new year. I baked some lovely Samhain cookies with sage and mint today and bought a lovely bottle of wine for celebration. Tis very cold outside tonight so I will be calling My circle indoors this year. With the way I have been feeling tis probably best that way.

Took the time today to make My black and orange candles. As well as adding My Gold (Represents the God's) and Silver (The Goddess) to My circle. I have all My candles burning in My windows, My pumpkins burning bright with the candle inside, cookies and a chalice of wine sitting on My front porch. Making sure that the loved ones surrounding Me that have passed know I am here and open to seeing them and recieving their love and wishes. Tonight should be very active. The air is very cold and thin.

Went with a girlfriend friday night out to dinner and to see Saw 3. It was quite the scary movie. Her and I always loved horror flicks even as kids. So it is always the two of us that tend to flock whenever one comes out. It was far better then the last two. At least I thought so.

Her and I grew up together. She lived two houses down from Mine and we were always together. I was a wild kid, yet she made Me look like a Mother Saint. She was always the one doing the pot, getting smashed and arrested. I on the other hand, had a father who was a police officer and knew My way around sneaking VERY well. She always got caught, I never did.

It is always funny to Me when we go out now. She married a Baptist Minister and is all god fearing. We normally do not talk much about it but as we were out friday I wanted her to pull into the Adult Toy Shop. She of course didn't and I had to hear a huge lecture about it. Goddess love her!

Anyhow,
I am off to get ready for My ceremony.

Blessed be E/everyone and Happy Samhain!

Goddess Isis Moon

2006-10-26T06:27:00.000-07:00

About a week ago I recieved an email from someone whom is not normally in My contact list. This male submissive (so he claims) wrote Me about My blog. I was not sure exactly how I was going to respond but thought I would go ahead and do so here. I normally am not one that airs dirty laundry and of course will not disclose any information that he sent to Me but felt that it was needed to post. His email is as follows, bad spelling and all. **Loves when people can't even spell the work Dominant.**

GoddessIsisMoon,(That is not even a Dominate name)

I have been reading your diary for 2 months or so. There are a fw things that I would like to say to you. Why on gods green earth do you even call yourself Dominate? you say that this is a Dominate diary and all you talk about it the weather, your health/. your dreams and how horny you were the night befor.

A dominate girl writes about hiting someone, making them criy and most of all having them serv you. Dominatatition is not about love. Or is it about "Taking someone under the wing". It is about pain and sex.

Perhaps you should put your diary under a diferent catagoirey.

Good luck...wiht the rate you are goin I am guesing you will need it.

Now......
I responded as this.....

Your email did not bother Me at all. If that was the angle that you were trying for, I am sorry to say it failed. I see a lot of your type sadly. The type that has a totally screwed up sense of what a true D/s relationship is and the deep potential that it can and should hold.

To My knowledge My blogger is not just listed under the D/s catagory. In fact, I was not aware that there was a "Catagory" placement at all. In the "About Me" section of My blog it lists several things that make up Me as a whole. D/s not being the one and only thing. I have no need to write about it every single minute of the day. It is not a role that I play but who and what I am. I am not a mother every second, a witch every second or a Dominant every second. I am just Me. The entire circle of what makes Me who I am surrounds Me on a constant basis. It does not waver nor does it need to slap anyone in the face all the time either.

I am guessing that you are either really, really new to the D/s realm or that you are a man who enjoys sitting at his computer jacking his cock off to anything that has sex, fucking or the latter in the title. There are plenty of porn sites online that you can few. My blogger is not one of them.

Good luck in all your future needs,
Goddess Isis Moon
(Which is a Goddess from Egypt)--Research

BTW... The word is DOMINANT

The email did not bother Me or make Me angry. It just proved what I have believed all along. W/we as a whole, those in the D/s community have a responsiblity to educate those that clearly show U/us in a bad light.

This guy had no clue, clearly. If he had come to Me wanting information I would have had no problem giving it to him. Yet, so many come believing that they get it when in turn they have no idea.

So... mr. blog reader.... if you want to know... ask.

2006-10-22T06:23:00.000-07:00

I feel a tad better this morning. Last night proved to thankfully be a night full of rest and I feel a bit fresher this morning. I believe the saying "When it rains it pours". Seems like everything is hitting Me from every angle possible. Ironically I am okay with that. I am used to being tested.

Although I must admit it has been a time that I needed. Not the pain or sickness of course but the quiet. The docile movement of everyday life and just cuddle My kids. As I have said a million times over, I believe each and everything happens for a certain reason. Why I got this sick, I do not know. Yet, it was time My body got My attention to just slow down and take a deep breath. I have enjoyed doing just that. Now, if the pain would just go away I would be one happy woman.

Over the last month or so I have come in contact with some very shitty submissives and some quite wonderful ones. I have been lucky that the good have outweighed the bad by 110%. Yet, I am starting to think that if the net BDSM community came together and seeped out the names of those that W/we know are players then it would save U/us a world of both hurt and time.

I am starting to think that those players do not understand that there really is a live, breathing person on the other end of that internet line. That even those who are Dominant live a regular everyday life and have a heart that beats just like theirs.

Sadly I do not have to list their names here because I am betting money that they still come here to live through Me and know well enough who they are. Tsk Tsk. Did your momma not teach you better then this?

The weather here has been beautiful. Gloomy and plum cold to most but beautiful and silent to Me. Cold, grey, windy. Is there any better blend then that?

Nope, nothing better.
At least nothing G-rated!

2006-10-21T16:14:00.000-07:00

I am slowly but surely starting to feel better. I wish it would happen a bit faster but nevertheless it is happening.

Added a new feature to the blog, hopefully I can get it working. Tis still a work in progress.

I just wanted to update quickly. Perhaps I will have the strength to sit here tomorrow and write just a bit more.

Goddess Isis Moon

2006-10-17T06:37:00.000-07:00

I have not written here in awhile. I have not really felt like sitting here and going through the things that have been on My mind and weighing on My body.

For those that have been close to Me awhile they are aware of the health problems that I have had after the birth of My son. For those that are not up to speed I will get you there.

After I had a C section with My son I had extreme scarring tissue and a favorable size mass left over in My tummy. Diagnosed as a "hematoma", I was told that over the next 18 months it should go away and shrink in size. Yet when it was shrinking and draining the left over blood and such it would cause Me great pain. It started sunday when I thought perhaps I was getting the flu and seeped over to yesterday. Last night it started to cause Me great pain and I ended up in the ER. I have never been one to cry wolf and usually deal with things fairly well. Yet this morning around 3:00am the pain and fever was almost too much to bear. Scopes and Ctscans later, it was proven to be the same thing as it was 6 months ago.

Today I feel as if someone has hit Me with a mack truck and all I want to do is sleep. I have a doctors appointment later this afternoon and need to refill the percacet that I was given last night (About the only thing keeping Me alive it feels).

I am of course, alright and going to survive. Although I must wholeheartedly admit it surely does not feel like it today.

I just am lucky I have family and friends around to care for Me.

Anyhow... I just wanted to quickly update. I am outta commission. So to those I speak to on a regular basis, please do not feel that I am pushing you outta the loop. When I am sick or in pain, I am one that just wants to be left alone.

Love to Y/you all.

2006-10-11T02:44:00.000-07:00

I am not really sure why the time posted on My posts are all so off. I have clearly yet to figure out exactly why. Whatever time it says, it is not 4:14 am and I am just unable to sleep.

It is a wonderful night for it. Tis pouring rain outside and you can feel the temp drop as the storms move in. Light snow showers are to grace us here in a few days and My heart is awaiting in patiently.

I hate nights like this. When your body just wants to sleep and your mind says otherwise. I must have stared at the ceiling for more then an hour. My body wanted to just soak itself deep into My satin sheets but My eyes open and awake.

I opened the french doors off of My room and layed sideways on top of the sheets. Slipping My jammies off to cool off thinking perhaps it was just too stuffy in there. Did not work.

Yet I did lay and enjoy what moon peeked through the storm clouds and lit up My room.
A million thoughts rushing into My head and over My body, mirroring the rain hitting the grass outside.

I tried a hot cup of tea. Making it boiling hot so it would cool as I ran My bath, hopped in, soaked and lightly dried off. Pulling the covers over My body, sipping My tea.

Sleep did not come.

I tried fulfilling My urges... alone yet again. Cumming time and time again.

Sleep did not come.

I sorted through My toybag. Walking through memory lane as I took out each thing.

Sleep did not come.

I lit a candle and grabbed a book. Read for nearly an hour. Thinking perhaps it would make My eyes tired enough to shut.

Sleep did not come.

I wrote in My paper journal for the second time today. My aches, needs and urges spilling out on burnt edged paper. My eyes welling, My heart racing, My body aching.

Sleep did not come.

I grabbed My meditation mat and sat My bottom down. Taking Myself off to somewhere far away with someone I loved.

Sleep did not come.

I went through writing down what herbs I needed. What essential oils were low. What candles needed to be restocked.

Sleep did not come.

I am not really sure exactly why sleep did not kiss Me tonight. Perhaps My aches are just too deep. Perhaps the urges of need, much to strong.

So here I am. Writing again. Digging through a million pictures to post to pass the time.

My urges and desires running hot. Melting everything around Me and I can smell the lust burning from within. I want to be filled. Full of what I need and want. I know that they will run until I have that taste. That need filled to the brim of Me.

I have never been one of those Women, Dominant or not, who denies who and what She is. I know I am raw, open, vulnerable at times. I like it that way. There are not many people who understand it, yet it is Me. I would say to you if you do not like it then eat Me.

Yet I may just like it! Alright, who the hell am I kidding? I want it.

Anywho....

Whatever the case may be, I am praying to the Goddess's that I get a nap sometime today or I am gonna be one bitchy Domme.

2006-10-10T18:47:00.000-07:00

Everyone keeps asking Me what is up with the mary janes. I have the cutest school girl outfit, yet no shoes to go with it!

Adding just one more boot to My wishlist.

Boot

Onto another subject.

Was in the car this evening, doing some of My errands and although I had heard this song come on before I never really minded much attention to it.

Yet tonight as I was driving, it hit Me really hard.

We do it all
Everything on our own
We do not need anything
Or
Anyone
If I just lay here
Will you lay with Me
Forget about the world?
I do not quite know
To say how I feel
Three words
Said to much
Yet for Me
Not enough
Forget what we are told
Before we get to old
Show Me a garden that is bursting into life.
Lets waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind Me to find My own

Sighssss

Will write later.

2006-10-10T09:04:00.000-07:00

I have had so many people who know My birthday is coming up ask Me what I want.

I always find it so hard to do that as I hate those "Money" Dommes. So I am just always so careful about it.

Yet, I am sick of people asking Me so here is a list of the things on My dream list.

Shoes
Size 8
shoes
More shoes
One More

Books--
Solitary Witch-SilverRavenWolf
Book

Fetish/toys
Toy
Toy
Toy
Toy

So there Y/ya'll get off My back would ya?

2006-10-09T05:39:00.000-07:00

I woke this morning after a night of restless sleepy. Groggy and tired, I peeked out to see what Mother Earth had served us up today and found the grass lightly steaming from the temp drop through the night. Was a beautiful sight and quite a mirror in the way I feel this morning. Steaming, hot yet cold and groggy within Myself.

Today is supposed to be the warmest day of the week. Closing the weekend off with a beautiful dusting of snow and a high of 30. I love to watch the season change and record Mother Earths way of freezing everything in its path.

I am always amazed at how the weather and My moon intertwine as one. Such a steamy yet icy mood I feel in today. Sitting here typing this I can see the patio windows start to slowly warm from the inside out. What a lovely thought that is. Warming someone from the inside out. Defrosting their heart just a bit and making a warmth overcome them.

I am listening to this song this morning and wanted to type the lyrics. It is a beautiful song.

Something in your eyes
Makes Me want to lose Myself
Makes Me want to lost Myself
In your arms
Something in your voice
Makes My heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
For the rest of My life
If you knew
How lonely My life has been
How long I have been so alone
If you knew I wanted someone to call My own
To change My life
Feels like home to Me
Feels like I all the way back where I come from
A window breaks
Down a long dark street
A siren spins in the night
I am alright
I have you here with Me
I can almost see
Through the dark there is light

I have always loved that song. Most of My morning are spent with coffee and a song or two. Is there a better way?

2006-10-07T19:00:00.000-07:00

The moon is in full glory tonight. Its traces of water around it are clearly streaked underneath of it and its trouble ring so beautifully hanging as if you could swing from it all through the night.

I have My french doors to My bedroom slightly open enough so that the chilly breeze kisses My toes and it puts My mind and heart a bit more at ease then it has been. Nights like this when the moon is full and the breeze is cold My heart aches. My body shivers, not from the weather but from what it lacks.

Aching, Needing and Wanting are not bad things. They are things that allow U/us to see that W/we are still alive. They allow us to see that there are still those things inside of us that crave. Allows our skin to burn and sweat. Our minds to wonder and think. I think far too often in this world W/we do not allow ourselves to explore those dark places. W/we allow others to dictate what is considered "wrong" or "odd"

I am not the norm. I do not follow the grain. There is a drummer in My head beating a different tune then the rest of the world and I am okay with that.

Does it make life any easier? No.
For when You are different, darker, raw, open, You leave Yourself open for others to climb in and snatch what they want from You.

Yet I have to be open. If I am not open to everything around Me, for I will not survive.

*Deep Breath*

Nights like this make the words flow out of Me like the finest vintage wine in the cellar.

Sleep well kiddles and Blessed be to the Goddess Moon, that hangs so beautifully in the sky. Making there be daylight in the deepest of night.

2006-10-06T05:34:00.000-07:00

The morning is filled with air chilly enough that it smacks you in the face as soon as you hit the door. There could be nothing better then feeling that cold on your face first thing bright and early.

It is beautiful outside.

The dreams I have been having lately have been very dark in nature. Wonderful dreams that wake Me in a sweat with the sheets soaking wet from the night filled with images that are so real I almost think that I can reach out and touch them.

The dream I had last night was in an old warehouse. There was very little light shining through. It was just the almost full moon making the shadows a bit easier to see. It was filled with desire, ache, want and the sudden need to make Myself be shown. I was taking what I wanted from a bound up submissive and was filled with lust and want. Whispers of "Yes Mistress", still linger in My head.

If only I knew what everything represented. If I was able to tap into them and find out what message they are sending Me. It was a lovely dream. Taking what I need and getting what I want.

The ache and need I have at this moment. In this chilly morning is almost unbearable. It makes My head spin, My heart beat just a bit faster and allows Me to focus on every single breath that escapes My body.

I think it becomes a "must" when you call feel that need in every single moment of the night and day.

I would lie if I sat here and said those dreams and daydreams do not affect Me. For they do. The reach the top of My head and fill it with ideas and thoughts. Touching My belly and making it flop and swirl. Making My cunt ache and finish reaching the bottom on each toe making them curl with the mere thought of finally getting it.

I have always believed that patience is one of My strongest suites. Yet this morning, as I look around, patience is not near. And I think I like it that way.
It is making Me antsy and unable to sit still. Making Me squirm a bit in My chair and My body quiver. The yearnings are fresh, new and need to be fulfilled.

Oh how I like mornings like this. For many, many different reasons.

*Insert Evil Grin Here*

Blessed be kiddles

2006-10-04T06:26:00.000-07:00

I woke up growling outloud this morning as My bedroom windows were slightly open and I did not feel a chill in the room. Instead I felt warmth and a sudden muggy feeling in the air.

Only to open the french doors that keep My room from the outside to feel the warm, muggy weather. It pissed Me off instantly, so I am guessing My day is not going to be as good as I would have liked it to be. I enjoy opening the doors in the morning and feeling the chill hit you in the face. My favorite thing to do in the morning is sit on the rock steps that go down under My doors and have My morning coffee. My robe around My shoulders just watching the birds eat breakfast.

Yet this morning I sat there playing with the small pebbles on the step with My toes praying for the coolness to show itself.

I have very few neighbors. The nearest neighbor is about a mile and a half northwest of Me. An older gentleman in his late 80's who still farms as much as he can. About a year ago he lost his wife to a heartattack and these days I see him less then I used to. This morning he brought Me a bag of greenbeans and corn from his farm and sat down with Me as I got him a cup of coffee. We sat there talking for awhile and I asked him what is the secret to true happiness.

He sat there for awhile, sipped his coffee and stood up. With a gentle kiss on My forhead he simply said this.

"I know you go through life Miss H but Someday you will find the one thing that will go through you."

As he left I noticed tears fill in My eyes. I suppose he is right. I go through so much yet I still believe I will find that someone that will go through Me.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-10-03T08:51:00.000-07:00

My mind has clearly been in the sexual gutter as of late. Not in a bad way of course but in a good way. Where My thoughts are leaning toward the dark and raw side. I have those thoughts often but lately they seem to be just a bit darker and just a bit more raw then usual. I love the word raw. It makes Me shutter everytime I hear it. For My explaining why I love that word, I can't. I just know that I love it. Animalistic.
Word of advice....
Don't feed the animal unless you plan to make her full.

Evil grin and wink.

With that said I have also felt a bit off center. As if I am teetering between sanity and being insaine. My sleep has not come as much as I would like it to and I am not really sure exactly what it is that is keeping Me from My slumber. I am sure it will rear its ugly head and show itself when it is supposed to.

When I am able to sleep soundly My dreams too, are very raw and real. I am sure a lot of it is due to the cravings that I have in My heart, My mind and the very core of My belly. I feel antsy and unable to sit still. Some of these cravings have become so strong that I know they need to be fulfilled... soon.

I went shoe shopping yesterday. Did I buy some cute shoes! Sadly, I spent way too much money and bought way too many shoes. Yet... come on! I love shoes!
Here they are.....

Aren't they just adorable?

Finally got My digital camera and dock figured out today. Hopefully in the next few days I will get some of the pictures taken I have promised Goddess A to take months and months ago.

So that is it for now.
Have a blessed day!

Goddess Moon Isis

2006-09-29T08:02:00.000-07:00

I had the most delicious dream last night. Thus the picture of the bus in the start of My posting. It was a beautiful dream that I did not want to wake up from and when I did wake I found Myself excited and the sheets a tad wet. I took care of it, don't worry. I won't go into detail here as I do not want My page to be the source of a masterbation fest, yet lets just say it involved a bus, the back on the bus and a man.

Giggles

I thought of someone this morning so wanted to post this. For I am not sure why people come into our lives. I am sure that there is always a reason. We just do not know the reason yet.

I will give you countless amounts of outright acceptance
If you want it
I will give you encouragement to choose the path you want
If you need it
You can speak of anger and doubts,
your fears and freak outs
I will hold it
You can share your so-called
Shame filled accounts of times in your life
I will not judge it
There are no strings attached
you owe Me nothing for giving the love that I give
you owe Me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for recieving
It's My priviledge
you owe Me nothing in return
you can ask space for yourself
Only yourself
I will grant it
you can ask for freedom as was
Time to reveal
you will have it
I bet you are wondering when the next payback will eventually drop
I bet you are wondering when My conditions or policies will force you to cough up
I bet you are wondering how far you will have to dance to move back into dead space
you can express your deepest thoughts
Even if it means it is hard
I will hear it.
you can fall into the abyss on the way to your bliss
I will empathize with
You can say you can not chase your passion
I will hear it
you can hit rock bottom, have a crisis
I will hold it.

Have a blessed day,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-09-28T10:44:00.000-07:00

I find My mind drifting to far places this morning. Unable to think of just one thing, yet a million things all rushing in and colliding with each other.

Sitting here listening to the rain hit the window, listening to the thunder bolts outside and I notice My breathe deeper as each strikes. I have the utter desire today to be peeled open. To have each and ever layer of Myself exposed for the world to see. It is something that I do not do. Something I try to avoid, yet today for some reason I feel it would be leave Me vulerable. With that said, being vulnerable does not scare Me. In fact it tends to do the exact opposite. I enjoy being vulnerable and being able to just let go and be. The part of that I do not enjoy is that it seems there are far too many people anymore that take that vulnerable state and walk all over it. Eating you up and spitting you out before they even get a taste.

I think in life W/we all have to be vulnerable some. I have and will always be an open book. I have nothing to hide nor do I lie about who or what I am. I am always amazed at people who do and find Myself shaking My head and never quite grasping the concept of "white lies" let alone black ones. I have never feared tapping into Myself or speaking truth in what I know. I know that people do not always mean to lie or to tell small stories, yet knowing thyself is a practice few remember.

On days like these, where the rain is so beautifully sweeping the dirt away I become almost docile in My heart. Those romantic tendencies bubble up and I wonder if chivlary still readily exsists in this world. Will there be that submissive who aches when I am not near because he can not breathe as well without Me? Will there be that one who is comfortable enough within himself to be able to express that love and adoration he has in the realm that is Me? I could sit here and write a million questions. Yet, those questions have no answers as of yet.

When I know, you'll know, ya know?

So I will not stress about those answers. The wind shall carry them to Me when I am to know.

As of now, I will continue to look out at the rain and watch as it washes everything away. In hopes that *My* submissive will see My relection in a muddle puddle and swim on home.

2006-09-25T19:37:00.000-07:00

My body is tired. Shaken and just done. My heart is a mere section of what it was years ago and I find Myself angry for giving any of Myself at all to anyone. I sit under this blackened sky as it cradles around Me. I feel as if I am a dead animal laying on the road while vultures lie in the shadows waiting for the silence to simply pounce and take what is not theirs to begin with. That dead soul simply being eaten as if it were alive. Yet, it has not been alive for quite sometime as it has been pecked at. Little by little by many different people.

Why not just have someone eat all of Me, instead of just taking parts that they need? Leaving an empty shell to break. Why can there not be a soft gentle wind to carry Me? Why does it have to be a breaking wind that shakes Me to the ground?

Even us Sadistic Bitchs hurt when words such as "hatred" are thrown. Even I am gentle and loving. Although most never get that far to see that side. Perhaps I don't show it because I am always knocked down to the ground far quicker then I would like.

But hey... I don't feel much. I am Sadistic and Dominant remember? We don't feel anything at all.

I have always hated the word ambivalent, yet the more I tend to center Myself here the more ambivalent I feel. I can no longer say "That particular time" when all those times tend to now run into each other. One being the same as the next. All things simply running into one another like melted crayons left on the sidewalk on a July day.

I think it becomes trouble when you no longer notice your wounds. When you simply tend to licking them clean far before you even know why they are there to start with. One caused right after another tends to just make life... there.

Do I just not give Myself anymore? For has it gotten to the point that I throw My arms in the air and walk away from all I know? How much work it is to not become so jaded that love is never in the realm. How do you learn to just let people in when the majority of people prick you with thorns right away?

With skinned knees and fucked up elbow I yet again get up and get back on. Although I am not really sure why. How exactly does one that has an open heart shut it off all the time? How does one just put up a wall so there can not be the slightest bit of hurt settle in?

Just another set of questions that I can never seem to answer.

2006-09-24T18:58:00.000-07:00

I have always held My ground firmly that people come into our lives for a certain reason. Perhaps it is just one reason, others it is several different reasons.
I have had a person come into My life recently that has take the spot of muse in My life. I also have a great feeling that they are there for more then one reason, yet as of now it is that person that has taken that muse role.

It has been quite awhile that anyone has fit so neatly and tightly into that spot. It is rare for Me that anyone truely takes that position in My life or in the moment.

A muse is quite a lovely thing. So kudo's to that person. I believe reading this you will know who you are.

The weekend has been dark and dreary to most but beautiful and quiet for Me. It is always lovely when Mother Earth takes Her moment to breathe and wash away all the impurities that it has gathered. Washing away bit by bit all of the things that do not need to be there. She did exactly that the entire weekend and I was relaxed with Her.

My desire has run on a ultimate high this weekend. My desire to take. My Sadistic desires. My romantic desires. That desire to have the one that completes Me like a complicated puzzle piece that ever so beautifully fits into Me. A delicate and intricate jigsaw puzzle finally fitting into what should have fit ages ago. That puzzle piece is not always easy to find and takes great patience to fit in properly together.

My desire, those deep, raw and dark moments within Me run wild in My mind, My heart and My belly. Those thoughts are making My heart beat a bit faster and My breath deepen with each inhale.

"Waiting to exhale" would be a good line in this entry.

I close My eyes and can see that submissive in My belly perfectly. he is waiting ever so patiently for My hand, My body, My mouth, My heart, My mind and most importantly My soul to devour him whole. Allowing him to enter My aura and never be returned to same.

Sighs.. I can see him just perfectly. Now, if I can only touch him.

**If you stop by here please sign in the comment box. So many people stop and never say a thing. I would like to know that you were here!**

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-09-21T19:39:00.000-07:00

I am not sure what has come over Me tonight. My mind seems to not be able to settle itself. I have mentioned before in My many bloggings that there are times that I tend to get dark. Dark to Me is not a scary thing, nor is it something that I shy away from. My mind when that darkness comes over Me tends to run away with My normally everyday thoughts. Making it hard to focus and My heart gets sentimental.

Allows Me to tap into the feelings that I have supressed or feelings that are new and upcoming for Me. When in that dark state I tend to do My best meditation and magical work. When feeling this way I want romance and deep sadistic urnings to be fulfilled.
My mind can never keep up with My fingers as I write extensively in My journals.

Tonight the darkness of night seems to call to Me. As if there is a soft whisper in the air waiting for Me to simply act upon it. My heart feels as if it could not ache any harder. Twisting and kneeding within My chest. Urning to feel the submissive that seeks Me in the darkness as well.

Time stands still for no one. This W/we all know for fact, yet there are times in life where it feels time is moving in slow motion. That even with it moving so slow W/we are unable to keep up. Tonight is one of those moments where I want to stand and scream. Pulling at My hair and My clothes. Knowing that he too is out there. he too is out wandering in the darkness waiting to bump into the one he knows is true. W/we may both be wandering alone in this darkness. Yet I will find him.

So in My mind I scream.

"I know you are out there My love. I am coming for you. The journey is long but please believe that I will find you. Trust in Me that I will find you."

Do not get Me wrong, I am a very patient person. I know that when the time is meant for that darkness to clear it will. I enjoy this darkness, this wandering. I too know that this entry will make sense to noone but I. So I shall close and know that My mind will stay dark for the moment and I shall enjoy it.

2006-09-20T07:25:00.000-07:00

The last few days I have been catching up on reading the blogs that are in My bookmarks.

A few have written up the "soft soap" version of all of us. Some have written about the fact W/we all must have mental problems.

I suppose I find it funny. I find it funny when other people tend to try to put Me and Miss Jo Sadist in one basket. Label Me, stating I am like someone else.

I come here because My heart is drawn here. I come here to write about My life, My heart and My thoughts. I could sit here for hours telling you about My darkest deepest desires. Yet, I am the type of person that even though I write in a blog for all to see I also like My privacy. Why take every article of clothing off? When W/we all know that stripping down one article of clothing at a time is the best route to go.

I am far... FAR from a soft soap version of the lifestyle. Those that are exremely close to Me know that for a fact. Yet there are times that My dark and Sadistic side go hand in hand with that soapy version. I mean please, W/we are all just human. If W/we were all that dark all the time W/we would be in a padded room.

These people blog simply for the shock factor. Just too see how many people it pisses off and how many people write about it. Linking that journal from your journal.

Speaking of....

To Candance. Props to You Girl! Love the new link location for a certain fucked up person. That was quite clever!

Do I need mental help according to a certain bloggers response to a friend of Mine, regarding the D/s lifestyle and being in it?

Sure... of course I do. Yet I like My craziness!

"I am crazy, give Me some candy!"

Sticks My tongue out at all those bloggers. I am not afraid of what you have to say about Me, nor will I defend. I am comfortable within Myself and what I believe in. I am exactly where I belong.

Jealous much?

**Somedays W/we all just have to act like children and forgot about it!**
Today was My day.

My advice... do not write about what you do not know. Grab a book, hit a site. I am sure you could find something to learn. Something that would make you look just a tad bit like you know what the hell you are talking about.

Huggles all to oodles!

Goddess Isis Moon

2006-09-19T08:58:00.000-07:00

Time has clearly not been on My side lately. It is not that I have not wanted to sit here at write, yet it seems that even when I think I have the time.. I don't.

Things have been going at an extra fast pace. More then usual. With that said anyone who truely knows Me, knows that it is going at a pace that is too fast... even for Me.

So I hope to sit and write in a bit.

Blessed be,
Moon

2006-09-14T06:01:00.000-07:00

Goddess Aradia wrote something in Her blog that peeked Me to write this morning. It never seems to amaze Me some people in this lifestyle that see each and every thing as different avenues to take.

In a lifestyle that "prides" itself in the saying "Even if your kink is not My kink, it is respected", sure has a lot of people in it that have such misunderstandings of the lifestyle as a whole.

As GA wrote they are really just pigeon holes in the greater view of things.

Whether you call it
BDSM
D/S
S/M
FLR
LFA
Domina
Fem Dom
Black
White
ECT

They really are just the same thing rolled into the "lifestyle" Everyone has such different meanings for each that one can call it D/s and mean something totally different the someone else calling it that.

What W/we need to all understand is that what works for one may not work for another. What one feels the meaning of FLR is may be different then the other.

There is one thing that I have no patience for are people in this lifestyle that write or act as if they know everything, when in essence they know nothing at all.

Do you really think that the handful of U/us that have lived a true lifestyle life do not see through all the holes in you?

W/we do. W/we see it more often then Y/you know.

I believe sadly this happens in so many area's of life. Not just the D/s lifestyle. What I may see as black, someone else may see is dark gray. What GA may see as pink, I may see as light red.

Whatever the reasons, whatever the situation, accepting others views and differences is what makes U/us who W/we are.

W/we may all walk the same sort of path. Yet walk it knowing that it means something different to each one of U/us.

Blessed be,
Goddess Moon

2006-09-13T18:53:00.000-07:00

Anyone who truely knows Me, knows that sometimes I can get very dark. That there are times in My life when I need to be the most Sadistic. Tonight is one of those nights. Not to say that in My normal D/s relationships I am not Sadistic, for I am. Yet tonight there is just something calling out to Me and I wish that I could act upon it.

To have that slave at My feet just waiting for the next order. Hearing him breathe deeply and feel him get to the point that needing Me almost is a Sadistic act in itself.

It has been awhile since I have had the flogger in My hand. Since I have heard the stingy sound of the Buggy Whip or the smack of the crop. It has been awhile since I have had a submissive clutching the bed in tears telling Me how much he loves Me and is thankfully I care for him so much.

As I sit here and write this, having all those beautiful things go through My head it makes My heart hurt and My body ache. Ache in a way I have not felt in a very long time. It is very rare that I ache for those things. Although I know that it is a very good thing that, that thirst and hunger is still there. The wanting, aching and needing. Sometimes the journey itself is long and drawn out so I am glad to know that those desires are feeding Me still.

For Me the small acts of servitude and love from a slave is normally what sustains Me. Yet tonight there is such a stronger and deeper need floating inside of Me.

I know that slave will come to Me when it is meant to be. Yet I am ready Damn it!

Blessed be,
Goddess Moon

2006-09-12T19:04:00.000-07:00

I found this picture and love it. Oh how I love My garter and stockings. There could be nothing better.

I have not written in awhile. I have just been taking some time to sit back and breathe. I think there are times W/we all need to do that. Most of My day today was spent taking care of Me. I spent 90% of the time laying in bed. Reading, Sleeping, Masterbating. What a joyous day it was!

Not many days are like that for Me, so even through rare I took it in for all it was worth.

I just wanted to update quickly before bed to let E/everyone know I am still around and kicking!

I will write more tomorrow.

Blessed be and Goodnight

Goddess Isis Moon

2006-09-04T19:00:00.000-07:00

So, there have been several of us that keep blogs that are posting on an entry that LFA spectic wrote about in his/her journal. I know that it angered quite a few and wanted to step on the point Myself.

Reading it did not anger Me. It simply showed Me yet again that so many in this lifestyle are clueless in what they know. So many enter, play around or write about this lifestyle with "surface" knowledge. Surface knowledge is based on what someone reads on the net, see on TV or movies. Anyone can have surface knowledge and in fact most of U/us have surface knowledge in almost everything in life. I could do open heart surgery... I could cut open the chest and get that far. That is surface knowledge.

It is clear that this person simply has that. Stating that D/s is based on a mother/son relationship shows the lack of any real life situations or any true study behind what he or she speaks of. There are so many different aspects of D/s that there can not be one right or wrong answer.

In fact, putting the words BDSM together in My eyes is just not the correct thing to do.

BDSM... all four areas are so very different in every aspect that putting them together seems wrong and over all confusing to those just starting out.

Will touch on that subject tomorrow.

It seems that the misconception with so many that live a D/s or S/m lifestyle is that W/we all must have been fucked up somewhere down the line. We have had to be abused, raped, beaten.. ect. We must have all had terrible childhoods.

I have never been raped, had a wonderful childhood and have only been hit a few times. Usually it was I who hit first! I did not come into this lifestyle to make up for something I did not have or try to heal something that happened to Me. I know several people in the lifestyle that have and their coming in the lifestyle was not at all related to the things that have happened to them in their past.

I think with anything in the world there are good and bad sides. There are good and bad people in this lifestyle and out of this lifestyle. When I read that blogger entry I simply shook My head. Not in anger, not in saddness, but in frustration that yet another person is getting on the high horse and acting as if they know what they are talking about when in truth.. they have no fucking clue.

In Blessing and light,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-09-02T04:52:00.000-07:00

This morning I can not seem to get enough coffee in Me to get Myself moving. One of those sort of chilly mornings that make You just want to lay back in bed and sleep! Thankfully though, I must admit that being up this morning at 5am had its good points. The sky was a beautiful shade of black and blue as the sun rose up to kiss the earth. I sat with My coffee and just stared at it. Taking every breath of it in. Curled up in My rocking chair, which sits at the corner of My dining room, curled up with a blanket and a warm cup of coffee. I opened the patio door, which faces the West and stared out into the darkness for the longest time. It was a very good morning to a very busy day.

I was able to catch up on some of the blogs that I read on a regular basis. Candace wrote a good entry about sex drive. It is so funny to Me how everyone is so different. I went through of course My teenyears craving sex. Then it subsided and now at 28 (Almost 29), two children later, I find that My sex drive is at it's all time high. Not that I ever have time to act upon it, yet it is very high at this point in My life.

I think with Women, as with men, our sex drive changes almost like the seasons. Even with the changing of the months. It is not that W/we do not desire sex, yet real life always seems to set in and W/we find ourselves more busy then usual. I have always had a very hard time just having sex to have it. For Me, there has to be an emotional connection with someone or it just ends up feeling empty. Always a million things to do and no time to do them!

This morning I am hoping to sit My ass down here and hook up the digital camera I bought a year ago! It's the Kodak with the dock and printer. Not hard to hook up I am sure yet I just never seem to sit down and do it! So here I am, with that in mind updating My blogger instead.

Anywho.. off I go to accomplish something.

Blessed be,
Goddess Moon

2006-08-30T09:35:00.000-07:00

I think I may just feel a bit better today. Other then the PMS, stuffed up head and ear ache I do think I am just about on My way to a better recovery! A bit silly with all the medicine in My system but what else is new? Thus all the pictures that got with the posting.
Give Me a break eh? I have been in this house sick for far too long!

A question was asked of Me last night in relation to the physical side and the spiritual side of My Dominance. I thought it was a great question and one that I wanted to write more upon.

When I first started the lifestyle more then 10 years ago it was very sexually driven for Me. After all I was VERY young and VERY horny! I played for the sake of playing and always ended up empty. Not that I did not enjoy the play, I just knew that with more expierence and more studies that D/s would become something totally different for Me.

Years later I noticed that everything about the way I view a D/s relationship changed. It became more of an emotional and spiritual connection for Me then just someone to whip or fuck.

Now as I pass My 12 year mark into the lifestyle I am to the point that I can not and will not play just to play. That even without the sexual side of things, if the emotional side is there everything is going the way it should go.

Don't get Me wrong of course. I love to to have a submissive naked, over My knee. Feeling his cock get hard against My leg as I warm his bottom. Having him worship every inch of Me and make sure that I am satisfied. Yet, that is not all that I need from him.

It is important to Me that a submissive understand that the things that I do to him are from My heart. That they are based with love and caring. That My time and effort would not be put forward into him if there was not a spirtual, emotional and sexual connection with him.

When finding a true, connected D/s relationship the beauty behind it is something that most will never recieve or understand. Those that have it or will find it are very lucky.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

~Pictures from Getty Images~

2006-08-29T19:41:00.000-07:00

I have not written here for awhile. I have been extremely sick and just have not had the energy to sit here and write.

I went to the doctor today for the second time around. Inner ear infections in both ears, sinus infection and bronchitis. My daughter brought it home and now everyone has it. Hopefully this new medicine he put Me on will work this time.

As far as everything else in My life it is good....very good in fact. Sometimes you have to roll and bleed in the thorns before the roses start to grow. Thankfully the roses are growing and they sure do smell sweet!

For now I just wanted to quickly update. I will write more tomorrow when I am not drugged up!

Blessed be kiddles!
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-08-18T20:35:00.000-07:00

There are nights where the inside of Me is angry. Dark and plan pissed off. Tonight is one of those nights.

I had a few hours to Myself this evening and needed to get a few groceries. After I had finished I ran into Barnes and Noble, got a Starbucks and sat in the corner with an arm full of books that I knew I had in My mind I wanted to get.

After sitting there awhile I was returning a few back to the shelve that did not peak My interest. For some odd reason I think Barnes and Noble thinks it is funny to put the "New Age" and "Christanity" section directly across from each other.

I am standing there minding My own business when this older woman turns to Me and tells Me that perhaps I am standing in the wrong section. I turn to her confused and turn back around as I am not sure she is talking to Me or not.

She then stands besides Me and looks at the books in My hand.

To ride a silver broomstick
Solitary Witch
A witches guide to spells
Wicca and the love behind it

"Those things will make you evil" She says to Me

I look at her books

How to be a good catholic
The truth in god
And of course the one that peaks Me the most
talking to the dead.

I simply smile at her and say, as I touch the talking to the dead book.

"And this one My love was misplaced and should be in the new age section. Have a glourious weekend."

The look on her face was priceless.

My advice. Accept those around you. You may be interested in the same things they are.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-08-17T20:34:00.000-07:00

I found this picture while looking through Getty Images and I just stared at it. Taking a minute to look and each and every detail in the picture. What I would not give to be inside that cabin, curled with a cup of coffee and a good submissive at My feet.

My weekend is filled with home improvements. Not something I was hoping for yet... here I am. I tend to do My spring cleaning a bit late. Or early. Depends on what way you look at it. Yet when have I ever done things like other people do?!

Just wanted to quickly update.. so there.. I updated!

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-08-16T08:28:00.000-07:00

There are more then a few things I would like to touch upon this morning.

I am getting very tired of "submissives" who claim to be so, when in truth they really aren't. Why bother wasting your time or Mine playing around with someones head or heart when you know damn well it is not going to go anywhere?
Even the strongest Dominant Women have hearts and yes... surprise they can be tugged on and broken.

I am just ready to truely find someone who is real. Give Me a break already!

I am tired and just frustrated with everything and everyone I seem to come into contact with lately. It gets very old meeting the same type of people. The people that say the are one thing and really are something 100% different then what they claim to be.

All I have ever asked in honesty. Honesty in who and what you are. Honesty in what you want and desire. Honesty in what you need.

I am tired of liars, time wasters and simply fucked up people.

I do have a heart and a heart that gets broken easily. Perhaps just being yourself and realizing that would be greatly helpful. To understand this lifestyle and the depth that comes along with it would be helpful as well.

I do not want to give up on finding that one.. yet... lately it seems I am just tired of all of it. My heart is one with many scars.. tread easy.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-08-14T20:02:00.000-07:00

Isn't it funny how one little finger can make up an entire post of just about everything I want to say?

2006-08-13T20:17:00.000-07:00

I spent the day by the river
It was quiet and the wind stood still
I spent My time with nature
To remind Me of all that is real
It is funny how silence speaks sometimes
When we are alone
Reminds us how we feel
Again I stand
Against this faceless one
I saw a face on the water
It looked humbled yet willing to fight
The will of a warrior
The yoke is easy
Burden of light
Looked me right in the eyes
Direct and concise to remind Me
To always do what is right
If this face can not see the light
I know I will walk alone
If I walk alone to the other side
I might not make it home
So I stand here
Against My faceless heart
Next time I see this face
I choose to live for it always
So wont you come inside
Never go away
Alone I stand
A silent warrior in this light

2006-08-13T15:36:00.000-07:00

It seems so funny to Me that people think Dominants are not prone to having their hearts broken.

I will let you in on a secret... We are.

I feel very tired. Very done and very hurt. Yet then again I am pretty sure no one ever notices anyway.

2006-08-13T05:44:00.000-07:00

It is a chilly sunday morning here. I can not wait for the fall to settle in and bring a breath of fresh air to what has been a very hot and long summer.

I feel a bit off this morning. As if I am moving slow and everything else is moving very fast around Me. People in and out of My life as quick as the sun rising and falling.

I would love to just hop back into bed and sleep a bit more. In wishing that when I awoke this time around My outlook would be a bit different. Alas.. that is not happening anytime soon.

I still would like to believe in the truth and love that comes from a real D/s relationship. Yet I am fighting that belief this morning. I know in My heart it readily exsists... yet...well you know.

I have been taking time to set up a Witch Blogger so I can keep the two seperate.

Blessed be!
Goddess Moon

2006-08-11T19:15:00.000-07:00

What a witchy way!

It annoyes Me to no end that the title line is not present for any of My blog entries. I am not really sure how to fix that so if A/anyone reading this knows what the hell I am talking about and how to make it right let Me know!

The moon is full and beautiful. Took time to meditate earlier and work on the spells that I wanted to do while the moon was full. A lot of My herbs were dry and ready to pack. Thankfully because of the rain I was able to cut somemore that I was not sure where going to make it through the rest of the summer. The drying process is always such a mess but the outcome is twice as wonderful.

The Dominant Woman who was mentioned by My male submissive hair client called Me today. She was just about as sweet as can be. Bless Her heart. She was so nervous that She could hardly speak. Her and I are having coffee in the morning. I am sure She will be just as nervous tomorrow, yet I know that I will calm Her down a bit and hopefully help Her in anyway I can. I think that We expierenced Dominant Woman have a duty and calling to help those that are just starting out. So I am glad to do so.

Off to get some things done.
Blessed be kiddles!

Goddess Isis Moon
Photo--First light

2006-08-10T13:31:00.000-07:00

It is one of those days when your heart just aches for romance. I love the old songs, the chivlary, the romance. Such a rainy day that curling in bed and keeping warm would apply. So instead, I am listening to the old songs and writing. Sometimes I wonder if W/we realize that time moves so quickly. That people move on, move out and lose something wonderful and not even know it.

Oh all these romantic thoughts in My head will surely drive a Domme nuts!

<--Look for Me in a padded room and a straight jacket!

Blessed be E/everyone.

Goddess Isis Moon

2006-08-10T09:48:00.000-07:00

The weather here is not anything write home about. Yet, I can not complain everything needs the water.

Ironically it pretty much mirror's My mood today. Grey and dreary. Drenched and tired.

I am not batting a million lately. I feel a bit thrown off.

I have worked much of the morning on My computer as for some reason I can not log into half of My normal sites. Passwords are changed, links are gone. With all this One would think perhaps things were just not the way they should be.

I have been a bit quiet lately. I could tell you that I meant it to be that way but I really haven't. I feel in My own little world. As if I was thrown into it unexpectedly. Simply wandering around wondering what the fuck is going on around Me.

Not a feeling that I like.

Had this song on My mind this morning.. wanted to post it.

Take it back
Take it all back now
The things I gave
Like the taste of My kiss on your lips
Miss that now
I can not try any harder then I do
All the reasons I gave
Excuses I made
Are broken in two
All the things left undiscovered
Leave Me empty and left to wonder
Don't walk away
Touch Me
How I want to feel
Something real
Please remind Me
My love, take it back
I am not breathing
Suffocating
When I am in the dark
All alone
Dreaming that you will walk through the door
It is then I know My heart is whole
A million reasons why I cry
Hold My covers tight
Close My eyes
I just don't wanna be alone tonight
All the things undiscovered
Left Me waiting
Left to wonder
I can not fake it
I can not hate it
It is My heart
About to break
On your knees
Watch Me bleed
Listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, no doubt
I freak out
I'm left out
I'm crossed out
Kicked out
I cry out and reach out
Don't walk away.

Goddess Isis Moon

2006-08-07T16:18:00.000-07:00

I have written several times today. Everything just keeps changing like the northern wind, yet the wind is outta the east today.

I will just post My favorite song

In every heart there is a room
A santuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers pasts
Until a new one comes along
I spoke to you in cautious tone
you answered me with no pretends
And still I feel I said to much
My silence is my self defense.
Everytime I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes
And so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose
If my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break
And this is why my eyes are closed
Just as well for all I've seen
So it goes
your the only one who knows
So I would choose to be with you
Thats if the choice were mine to make
You can make choices too
And you can have this heart to break
So it goes
And so it goes
Your the only one who knows

2006-08-07T12:34:00.000-07:00

This post is for a dear one. I know things are rough around you right now. Please know it will get better.

It isn't very difficult to see why
you are the way you are
Does not take a genius to realize
That sometimes life is hard
It is gonna take time
You'll just have to wait
You are gonna be fine
But in the meantime
Come over here
Let Me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer
You will heal over
Heal over someday
I do not want to hear you tell yourself
That these feelings are in the past
You know it does not mean they are off the shelf
Because pain is built to last
Everyone sails alone
But understand that we can travel side by side
Even if you fail
You know noone really minds
Come over here
Do not hold on yet do not let go
I know it is hard
You have to try to trust yourself
I know it is hard
Come over here
Let Me wipe your tears away
Come alittle nearer baby
You will heal over
I will help you

2006-08-07T08:53:00.000-07:00

Today is a day filled with housework. I find these two cute pictures that fit today. Would it not be nice to have that man cleaning house for Me? Yet I am guessing the other will be more of My day!

My night was very strange. The dreams that came to Me were very odd and things that I am going to have to think upon. Children in home where they shouldn't be. Things to that nature. Perhaps I will have to donate My time in that area. The God's and Goddess's always seem to be right on in their messages while dreaming. I can not deny what they say.

I just wanted to write quickly. For I will be in and out the entire day.

Until then!
Blessed be Kids!
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-08-06T20:51:00.000-07:00

I seem to be very tired tonight. Almost to a point of exhausted. It is not one of those tired time that You just want to sleep, it is more of a body tired. One that makes it near impossible to keep your head up and all you want to do is lay in bed and call it a year.

The Moon is almost full and has a ring around it. A sign that trouble is not far behind. I have My rituals set up for when the full moon rolls around. It is soon, even without charts and knowledge I feel it in My gut.

I feel a bit better then I did last night. Thank the Goddess's above for that. I have not seen My patron Goddess in My dreams lately yet there are many others that are coming to Me. I will write about that later.

I was speaking to a friend of Mine who is on one of the boards I belong to. She is new to the lifestyle. In fact really new. Only a month or so into it. She is a plus size woman as well and asked a very valid question. One I will be posting in the FLR as well.

She asked how I can let Myself go and let a slave serve Me to the degree I do while still being a plus size Domme. Does My not being a super model make it so I am not able to be Myself, walking around naked, having someone bathe Me ect. hard?

For Me... I adore My body. I am a Goddess, a Woman of substance and if that bothers Me then there would be something wrong. If you love who You are, What You are about and what You look like then everyone else will as well. You will exude sexuality and senuality.You will have confidence and that will mirror unto other people.

I may not be 6'0" with a body of a 16 year old. I am a mother of two. I have been through many things in My life. It is beautiful to show the wear and tear of regular life. W/we all should be proud it showing it!

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-08-06T13:17:00.000-07:00

This song stuck in My head this morning.

Says a whole lot!

I would dail the numbers just to listen to your breath
I would stand inside My hell and hold the hand of death
You don't know how far I'd go to ease this precious ache
You don't know how much I'd give and how much I can take
Just to reach you
Just to reach you
Come to My window
Crawl inside, wait by the light of the moon
Come to My window
I'll be home soon
Keeping My eyes open
I can not afford to sleep
Giving away promises I know I can not keep
Nothing feels the blackness that has seeped inside My chest
I need you in My blood
I am forsaking all the rest
Just to reach you
Just to reach you
I don't care what they think
I don't care what they say
What do they about this
anyway?

)o(
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-08-05T19:35:00.000-07:00

I have posted this song before.
Yet My heart needed to post it on this particular night.
Even the strongest of Dominant Women feel Their hearts sink a bit. Most do not speak of it. I on the other hand, am not most. I do not pretend to be, nor do I want to be. I am Me. Period.

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
I wanna go home
I maybe surrounded by a million people
Yet I feel all alone
I miss you, you know
I keep all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
I would send them
I know it is not enough
My words are cold and flat
you deserve more then that
Another airplane
Another sunny place
I am lucky I know
Yet, I wanna go home
I have to go home
Let Me go home
I am just too far
From where you are
I want to come home
I feel like I am living someone elses life
Like I stepped outside
When everything was going right
I know why you could not come along with me
This is not your dream
You always belived in Me
Another Winter day
Has come and gone away
Even in Paris and Rome
I want to go home.

)o(
Goddesss Isis Moon

~Song-Micheal Buble
~Picture-Image Bank

2006-08-03T06:14:00.000-07:00

There are a few things that I wanted to write about this morning but will start with only One. The Most important One of course and will fill in the others later.

I have not really written about how Goddess A and I met and how We became close to I wanted to take a minute this morning and write about what She means to Me.

It is very odd to find someone that You feel so connected to. Both Her and I firmly believe that in a past life We were sisters. That somehow this time around the universe felt that We had to be connected again. There are times that I know something is wrong before She even states it. There are times that She knows the same. We are on each others life cycles in more ways then one and she is My soul Sister. Sometimes I long into messenger in the morning and start with... "Whats wrong?" I know when there is something happening before She states it and thankfully She too can read Me before I know it Myself.

We were connected this time around by a very insaine submissive. Now, I do not say that because he is odd... but because he really is that. Mentally ill. Only Goddess A and I did not know it until We started to compare notes. She pm'ed Me one night as She was mentoring him and he stated to Her that I said I would keep him in a cage for weeks at a time with no food or water (Something I never said). Her pm was... mean! Oh yes Goddess A does have a temper at times! We soon compared the things that were sent and realized that he really was a loon. We still laugh about it to this day but am thankfully that even though the Goddess's brought Us together in a very strange way, that We were still brought together.

I think there comes a time in E/everyone's life that W/we are connected with someone for a reason. A Someone comes along that just sort of completes U/us in ways that W/we can not complete ourselves. Goddess A is My other half. Sometimes My better half, sometimes My evil half. Yet, without I am not 100% whole.

I love You Sis. Thank You for being part of My life.

*Photo--John Fox

2006-08-02T12:33:00.000-07:00

Do you always trust your initial feeling?
Special knowledage holds truth, bears believing
I turned around
And the water was closing all around
Like a glove
Like the love that had finally fold me
Then I knew
In the cystalline knowledge of you
Drove me through the mountains
Through the crystal like clear water fountain
Drove me like a magnet
To the sea
How the faces of love have changed
Turning the pages
I have changed but you remain agless
In the crystalline knowledge of you

2006-07-31T14:57:00.000-07:00

Just arriving home today the phone rings. It is a gentleman whom I have done his hair for, for at least 5 years wanted to know if he can run by and "get done". I always giggle when people say that because it makes Me sound like a hooker. Anywho... he is in his mid 50's and always gets his hair cut (which is fairly long to begin with), beard trimmed and hair colored to a lovely silver (which is a beautiful salt and pepper shade, I have tried to convince him over the years to leave it with no luck)

Last time he was here he was dated a quite younger gal whom he had been dating for about a month and had told her that he loved her. She did not tell him back and he told Me he wished he had something that sort of "nudged" her in the direction he was hoping for. I of course made him a sachet of Mandrake Root crushed, a bit of olive and lavender. He placed it under his pillow and told me all about it working when he arrived today.

"She told me she loved me" he says.
Then wants to know how exactly that worked and how I knew to do it. Of course I wanted to blurt out because I am an herbal witch, yet did not think it would be good for business so I just said I studied herbs for awhile and knew that it would help.

He then sits in my chair and starts to tell me about he and his new loves sex life. You see there are thearpist that have papers on the wall and then there are bartenders and hair stylist.

"She wants to spank me" he blurts out in the middle of My trimming his beard.
I nod
"She wants me to worship Her feet"
I nod
"She wants to smother Me with her... (he stutters)... you know...(stutters more) with what is between Her legs"
I nod
"She even wants me to kneel in front of her and call her Mistress"
I nod

he stops talking and looks back at Me.
"What do you think"

I growl under My breath. How I want to shout to the world everyday that I am a strong Dominant Woman and that the men that have been with Me do those things. It is not strange to Me. It is love... life... the persuit of happiness.

Yet I know I can't
I simply say... "Go on"

he stutters through the whole "I know you think it is strange, wrong, ect, ect."

I sit down and tell him.

"She wants you to be submissive dear. To serve her the way she deserves to be treated. She wants you to be Hers completely and do things without question. I am a Dominant woman. A female leader who never gets in a relationship with a man who does not want to serve Me."

I lean in closer

"I am also a solitary, herbal witch. That is how I knew she would love you back"

he sits there a minute looking at Me. My heart races and I think to Myself how bad for business this is.

he hugs Me as if I am his long lost mother. Now it seems I have Her calling Me for Domination advice. giggles.

I just had to share this. Sometimes it is clear W/we need to be 100% true to who and what we are. They may just be some people that really do understand.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-30T19:07:00.000-07:00

I found this picture and thought it was too cute to pass up. I am hoping to start adding pictures to all My posts.

Blessed be and goodnight!
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-30T09:47:00.000-07:00

The weekend has posed to be fairly busy. This is the first time that I have been able to sit down and write even just alittle bit and even now I feel there are a million things to do. I am hoping to be able to sit down and catch up on some of the things that have lacked. Emails, the board... ect.

Just wanted to send warm blessings until I am able to write later!

Blessings,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-25T09:44:00.000-07:00

I have not been around much lately, this I know.

There have been things this weekend that have tested My ability to cope and My ability to look at the brighter things in life.

I am not One to air all that dirty laundry but there have been several P/people asking what is going on so I thought I would explain.

My grandmother on My dad's side died 20 years ago. She was the one that kept My family together. After that My grandfather became more abusive emotionally to the rest of My family. There are 3 boys. My uncle (The ass), My dad and My uncle that lives far away. This weekend was the estate sale of My grandmother and grandfathers home. Sadly it was made that My uncle (The ass) and his wife took everything and the rest of us recieved nothing.

My grandmother and I were very close. We could not be seperated. I was 8 years old when she died and through the years I tried to get several personal things that were hers to no avial. So this saturday the family stood with a bunch of strangers and bid on her personal items. Only to be bid against by the ass's of the family only so W/we were not able to get a thing. I think I bid on 25 different things and came out with only 4.

It proved to be the most emotional situation I have been in, in several years. I stood there in tears praying to the Goddess's that I would have something that was hers.

So this is why I have not been around. I am worn out and emotionally exhausted but I will try to be around more often.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-20T19:07:00.000-07:00

There was a post on the FLR that I wanted to write more. I of course when reading it wanted to maim right off the bat but held Myself and quickly wrote.

Yet here I feel I need to clean somethings up.

I want to first say that there are so many people in the world that are close minded. Those that judge before they truely know what they are talking about. Nothing makes Me more angry then those that "assume" things before they know anything about it.

Wicca is not about the devil. We do not worship him or believe that he is true. There is no devil in the craft. As always I hate labels so I will not speak for others and will simply tell you what The Craft means to me.

Witchcraft for Me and many others is all about nature. The combination of natural oils and herbs are down in crafting a spell. Along with the correct color candle, perhaps a crystal, insence and numerous things that you can throw into the mix. It is about getting in touch with One's self. For Me I believe in the God that most do. I also believe in many God and Goddess forces. I believe in the Shaman way. I believe in Native American teachings. In fact one of the main teachings in Wicca/Pagan/Witchcraft... what have you.. is based on the teachings of old. Everything is based on the moon, seasons and the sun.

I just wanted to clear this up and plan to write more on it as time goes by.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-18T13:53:00.000-07:00

Goddess A and I were giggling while posting something on the FLR board. There is nothing that makes Me giggle more then the word penis.

I have NEVER been one that uses nicey nice words. I love the word cock... I love the word cunt. Although I know that several Women hate that word it is one that really gets My heart beating very quickly.

Penis makes Me think of being in the 2nd grade and a boy showing Me his "penis" while during story hour. Makes Me giggle everytime.

Blessings,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-15T15:47:00.000-07:00

It is never easy to exam Oneself from the inside out on a deep level. I have done it several times in My life but W/we all know that W/we change just like the seasons do.

I am the season fall. I am the brisk, cold breeze that hits you in the face unexpectedly, yet you are always to inhale the smell of it sweetness. I am stubborn, sometimes annoyingly so. I never give up on something I believe in and can hold a grudge like you would not belieeve.

I am a lifetime student due to a college professors advice. "When you stop learning your soul dies". I took it to heart and need to learn things I do not know about on a constant basis.

I have four addictions in My life. Books, Shoes, Lipstick and fingernail polish. All in which I have far too much of.

I am a strong Dominant Woman. I can be a Sadistic Bitch and strike at a moments notice. I find great love in tracing My lips on warm bruised skin and understand the strength it takes to endure it for Me. Through it all you will be able to look into My deep brown eyes and get lost in them. Swimming in them knowing that no one loves you like I do.

I always tend to see the good in people and give them the benefit of the doubt. It can be both a blessing and a curse. It has caused Me great pain and heartbreak, I have been used, abused and mistreated from it. Yet it allows Me to gain trust to those around Me.

To My family and friends I am refered to as "Dear Abby". I am the One everyone comes to when a problem arises or life falls apart. We laugh and make a joke about it, yet there are always knocks on My door and crying phone calls late at night.

If I had a dollar for everytime someone has told Me that I seep of sexual aura and strength, I would be one rich Woman. I have always understood and embraced My own sexuality and have never been afraid of it, or showing it to others. I have always been able to accept My body for its goodness and it's faults. I model part time for Lane Bryant and have spoken for many years at different Jr. High and High schools to girls about learning to accept themselve's for what they are and embrace there body image with respect. Being comfortable with O/oneself is the most important thing.

I am an old soul, wise beyond My years and have always been told so. I believe in the truth in people and romance. I am a hopeless romantic and nothing gets to My heart quicker then a love letter. These days those things seem far and few in between but I would like to believe that they are still out there, even if they are out there floating in the abyss somewhere.

I am the craving in your mouth and the burning in your belly. I am addictive. I fall in love to quickly and where My heart on My sleeve. Sometimes a good thing, sometimes bad. Nevertheless it is Me. I am the quench of your thirst even in the hot desert. I can be obsessive, even making My territory.

I can be overly dramatic, tight lipped and mean. I do not take no for an answerwhen I believe in something, yet sometimes give it very quickly others. I am a pure contridiction. I am a girly girl and enjoy being pampered. Sadly in saying that I can not remember the last time someone spoiled Me or I spoiled Myself.

I am kind, gentle, loving and smart. I have a sharp mind, sharp instincts and understand with true compassion. I am direct, abrasive and outspoken. I am controveral and have never been told that I am unapproachable. I am hot blooded and warm hearted. I can be very secretive and only let in those I think should be let in. I am a brickwall and very few are able to truely get inside My heart and My soul.

I can be intense in many aspects of My life. Including My sensual and sexual side. I have very seldom enjoyed a soft and quiet time. I am rough, loud and speak My mind. I teeter between a neat freak and a slob. I am a procrasinator when I want to be.

I believe in the true love of a Female Led Relationship. I believe that all women have it in there to rule the roost and just need the knowledge to do so. I believe that a submissive man is the strongest and sadly the most vulnerable kind around. Although that vulnerable state is what attracts Me.

I have charisma, charm and am elegant. I am irresistable, creative and fun to be around. I am funny and when something really tickles Me I snort while laughing. Yes it will be a long time before anyone sees that!

I am adaptable in any situation and am a true listener. I am a mother, a Sister if by fate and not blood, a Daughter, a Grandaughter and a friend. I believe in family's. I am defensive, jaded and 100% soft. I can be your best friend or your worst enemy. I am a Goddess, a Mistress and a true Dominant Woman. I am a threat, a promise and human.

I am a follower of the God's and Goddess's of the world, of Native American cultures and The craft. I believe in surviving our past, living our present and predicting our future. I am the reincarnation of a half dozen past lives and believe I will live many more.

I am emotional and get My heart broken very easy. I tend to dance around My livingroom even if there are people watching and am a home nudist. I am a nerd, a beauty and a sight to see.

I am Me. No matter how complicated and strange. I am Me and I am proud of that.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-14T06:46:00.000-07:00

I would like to comment on the person who commented in My comment book.

I have been in this lifestyle 10+ years and am fully aware that both a Dominant and submissive need respect. Respect is earned... where respect is given.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-13T23:50:00.000-07:00

It is almost 2am here and I am just unable to sleep. I am not sure exactly what is eating at Me yet clearly something is and making My mind just unable to settle the way it should.

Sadly I know that My body needs rest but how do You rest Your body when Your mind simply does not want it to. Mind over matter.. yes I know.

I know that some of Yyou come here to learn more about Me and yes read My daily life but I felt the need to write more about what I need and am looking for. So here goes

The Need

The submissive I am looking for must be kind, gentle, loving and have a true old soul. They must be romantic and understand the true meaning of chivlary. A true desire to serve must be within their heart and soul. They must understand and/or be able to obtain the meaning of a real Female Led Relationship. A true Goddess Worship attitude and a desire to be what I want, when I want. They must be true to themselve so inturn they can be true to Me. Must be honest and giving in their submission. For the true heart never lies. Must be willing to give what needs to be given and understand that I may take anything at anytime. They need to be well spoken, well written and well traveled. Must have an open mind in many areas of life and be fully open to learning more.

They must be respectful to Myself, Those I love and family. They must understand that My life at times is surround by a busy life, children and love. The must endure the studies that a true submissive/slave endures and understand that being just that means a life full of learning and new area's to explore. you must be willing to change on a dime and move and speak the way I wish for you to at that moment. you need to understand and embrace the arua that surrounds Me and bow to it.

you must love Me like no other, you must respect Me like no other and in return I will do the same three fold.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-12T05:42:00.000-07:00

Today is another gloomy day outside. The fog is finally lifting thankfully and it is hot and humid. The earth is so moist that I shouldn't have to water for a few days.

Had a glorious dream last night. I was curled in bed and My submissive was curled around My feet like a warm snake waiting to shed it's skin. Was such a beautiful dream. There were many things that I dreamed of last night, I wish I could remember them all. I think I need to get one of those mini recorders so I can instantly wake up and record what I remember. It seems that I forget as soon as the first cup of coffee hits My tummy. Perhaps I should start drinking tea instead. Perhaps some myrth which promotes memories and well being.

My herb garden seems to not be doing as good as previous years. Sadly I think that it has been due to the drought we have had. Even through My watering I can sense that they are craving more rain. I believe that it is supposed to rain the next few days so perhaps they will perk up a bit.

Today seems quite busy. A lot on My agenda and none in which I really want to do. Yesterday I was blessed to be able to take a small, short nap in the middle of the afternoon. A very rare, but very wonderful thing. There is nothing better then curling in and dreaming the day away. Even if it is for just an hour. Refreshes the heart and the mind. Does not do bad for the worn out body either!

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-11T08:38:00.000-07:00

It is raining, actually pouring outside today. I so do enjoy the rain. Makes One just want to nap and call it a day! The rain washes away any traces left behind and makes the world smell fresh and new. As if there was nothing before it. It makes it seem as if the nighttime has crept into the day and the world is dark and beautiful all too soon.

Thankfully the rain has come and I do not have to get out and water My herbs, flowers and veggies. The rain water is so much better for them.

Such a respesentation of My life lately. Dark and dreary, yet flexable enough to wash away even the yucky days. Making everything fresh, new and clear again.

Blessed be!
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-10T09:14:00.000-07:00

*These are the times that try ones soul*

That could be My motto for the last week or so. I tend to be on a bit of a down slope. Loving and Losing, Cussing and being angry, Sadness yet relaxed. Everything seems to be changing so quickly around Me that I can hardly keep up.

Not even really sure if it is a good or bad change, just a change in general. You would think that the seasons were changing around Me, yet it is still the season of fire and everything is burning the way it should.

I know that everything comes into our lives for a reason. Yet I am starting to question what that reason is. Why do things come and go so quickly that Wwe can hardly even take in their beauty before they scurry off? It seems nothing stays in one place for long anymore and I wonder if the truthfullness in anything still readily exsists.

I am starting to question even the little things around Me. I have never been one to do that but everything around Me seems to explode under pressure.

A post that makes no sense to some.. yet makes sense to Me and that is all that matters.

Blessings,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-07-06T08:24:00.000-07:00

I think that this part of Indiana I live in should have a notch in the bible belt.
I have never been one to write or discuss politics, religion or lifestyle choices with the general public but something happend yesterday that rubbed Me the wrong way.

I had just finished taking My daughter to her karate class and decided to jump across the street to the grocery store to get a few things for dinner and the rest of the week. As we were finishing our shopping we exit the store to a picket line. A picket line with signs that say:

You are going to hell if you don't believe
God is great... you aren't
Believe or get out

Just to name a small few. My daughter who is six was of course frightened as the pushed her body around and handed her millions of little booklets asking her if she had been saved, if she goes to church.. blah blah blah

We finally got through the line and I made her sit in the car. I sat in the front just wondering what the next move I would make should be and just decided to let it go. I did of course complain to the manager of the store and he insisted that he had already called the police to get them removed.

Now.... with all of this.... I have never been one that shoves My lifestyle choices in someone else's face, why should they? I believe in the right to free speech and believe that is one great thing about America. Yet I do not believe that, that free speech should be shoved down someone elses throat in any way shape or form.

I could have stood outside the store and held picket signs.

"All men should be submissive"
"I believe in FLR"
"I believe that women are superior to men"
"I am a witch"
"I am wiccan"

Yet I do not believe that others should have to believe or live My lifestyle. I have never shoved it in anyways face. If they want to know, to learn, it is My choice to teach them.

With that said it is not that I believe in Satan (For there is no devil in the craft). It is not that I do not believe in God. For I do, many Gods and many Goddess's. I am spirtual in My own way and so is My family. I let My daughter do her own choices... I was raised catholic, went to a southern baptist church and finally found My calling in the spirtual world as a wiccan. My daughter has adapted some of those tendencies but we also pray everynight to the Gods and Goddess's. She makes her way.. I do not push her and she simply does what feels right.

I just had to vent... as I said I am normally not one to just talk about the relgious ways of the world... but it really pissed Me off.

Chalk it up to PMS or just acceptance of others but it rubbed Me wrong.

Blessed be Kiddles,
Goddess Moon

2006-07-05T19:38:00.000-07:00

Where is the moment when you need it the most?
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skys faded to grey
They tell me your passion has gone away
I don't need no carrying on
You stand in line just to hit a new low
You are faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your lifes been way offline
Your falling to pieces everytime
I dont need no carrying on
Cause you had a bad day
Your taking one down
you sing a sad song just to turn it around
you say you dont know
you tell me dont lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
you had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
you had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
I don't need to carry on
Sometimes the system goes on the blink and the whole thing just seems wrong
You might not make it back and you know that you could be strong
Well I am not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most?
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day

2006-07-03T19:18:00.000-07:00

From some reason the weekend has caught up to Me and I am growing more and more tired as the minutes go by. I wanted to post though before I head off.

Most do not understand that a true D/s relationship has such a deeper love then any Vanilla one can imagine. There is such a deeper and more spirtual connection through a D/s one then one without it.

I have been lucky in My years to have felt it and know that it is in the Goddess's thoughts that I shall have it again.

Of course a D/s love is a lot of work and many do not understand that the sexual aspect of it for some is just a small part. There is so many realms that surround this type of love, that binding it down to just one thing is near impossible.

I hope Eeveryone at some point in their lives is able to feel the truthfullness and kindness that comes from this type of love.

I wish that for Eeveryone.

Blessed be,
Goddess Moon

2006-06-30T18:57:00.000-07:00

I thought I would sit and post something that explored a little bit more about Me.

Some things Yyou may not know:
1. I never take a bath without bubbles
2. I have a cup of coffee each and every night before bed
3. My favorite store is Barnes and Noble
4. I always get a Chai Tea Frap at Starbucks
5. I write in My paper journal every night before bed
6. I write in My dream journal every morning I awake
7. I am an only child
8. I never give a book away, even if I have read it a million times. My bookshelf is full.
9. My natural hair color is brown but I color it auburn
10. My hair has been every color you can imagine
11. I love red wine and margarita's
12. I hate martinis!
13. I am Bohemian
14. I am not a shorts person in the summer... I always wear sundresses
15. My favorite candle scent is fig
16. I have way too many candles burning at the moment
17. I love to be outside
18. I love the water
19. I love coffee shops and could spend all day sitting and reading a book or watching people.
20. I love the color red
21. My grandmother and grandfather on My fathers side spoke no english
22. I am a hopeless romantic
23. I do not get out of My pj's on sunday at all
24. My very best friend Goddess A lives to far and I miss Her everyday
25. I am on several paths in My life and each one I know is right

So that is a bit more about Me. Some boring, some not. But that is Me!

I sat down and did two spells tonight. One for a great friend the other for someone I just met. I can not tell you who or what but I am hoping that it works. Of course I think at least one knows who they are and perhaps the other will ask if it was them.

Things around here have been extremely out of the norm. I hate when things hit and You have to try and fit everything in at once. Sadly that happens all to often to most of Uus.

I wanted to make sure that Goddess A knows what a wonderful job She did revamping the site. I so know how much She loves to be challenged and this sure has done just that. She is doing a beautiful job and Eeveryone should let Her know it.

I can not believe that June is already gone and left us. It seems just yesterday that winter was here and now summer is really booming. Although I love the heat and being in the water, I am already ready for the fall! Fall for Me is something magical. I am not really sure what it is but it makes everything just.... fall into place!

I have never been one to mourn what I do not have but tonight as I was soaking in a beautiful candle lit bath with lavender it really made Me think of what I don't. I know that everything will of course fall into place when it needs to but My thoughts ran away with Me and it made Me really think about things. I know that it is not easy for anyone when everything is not the way the want it... but for those that walk this path of D/s those wants become needs for most of Uus and it makes it all the harder... yet... all the sweeter at the same time.

So that is it for now... Just wanted to quickly update before My body hits the sheets.

For the path She walks is never dark
She lights in for the one that needs to find Her
She cloaks that body and makes it safe to enter
She is there with a candle in the window
She is there with a warm cup of tea
Do not fear Her
She will care for you the way you need to be cared for
She will love you
She will destroy you
She will build you up
You will never love another
She is Goddess
She is..... Me

*Inspired by someone wonderful, I hope you know who you are*

Bright Blessings and Love kiddles!
Goddess Moon

2006-06-27T09:50:00.000-07:00

I have never been one to live in the past. In fact I try to avoid the past at all costs.
Yet when an "object" from the past slips in and tries to get into your future it makes the past all to real.

I am not the type of person that plays the Fool Me once shame on you, fool Me twice shame on Me type game. You are lucky to get to 1 1/2.

So instead of going through all those thoughts of the past and taking time out of My life to notice it a song comes to mind.

So to the past... to that person that thought it would be wise to come into My future.. this is for you.

Like anyone worthy
I am flattered by your fasination with me
Like any hot blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
You.... your not allowed
your uninvited
Unfortunate slight
Must be strangly exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shephard meet shephard
But your uninvited
Unfortunate slight
Like any uncharted territory
I must be greatly intriguing
you speak of love like
You have expierenced love like Mine before
This is not allowed
you are uninvited
Unfortunate slight
I know you are unworthy
I don't need a moment to deliberate

Goddess Isis Moon

2006-06-25T19:31:00.000-07:00

The weekend proved to be fairly nice. Thankfully I was able to get a few things done and still have time to live a bit and relax a bit as well.

Was hoping to catch the munch on saturday night but just was not in the mood to go alone. Sometimes it never bothers Me... others I hate it. So I decided to sit it out this time. In essence I was glad that I did, it gave Me sometime to reflect and enjoy just being Me.

Sometimes Wwe all just need to do that. Enjoy the journey that life is taking us on, instead of always remembering what Wwe do not have. Now, in saying that it sure does not mean that I look around and know something is missing. I know that each and everyday. I suppose I just do not dwell on it. Somedays are harder then others.

I have spoken to some wonderful people in My journey. Some have stayed in My life, others have left as quick as they have come. Yet each and every person that has come into My life is still in My heart. I take a bit of them with Me. There is never a person or thing that has come into My life that has not been there for a reason. There is a reason behind each thing that has touched Me.

If you listen to the sound of your heartbeat and breath, you will recognize the ancient rhythm it speaks, your own internal drumming. Do not be afraid of it or your desires. I shall find you and Wwe shall drum together.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-06-23T21:55:00.000-07:00

I am unbelievably tired tonight. Two glass of the most wonderful red wine with a home cooked dinner on the grill made Me too tired for My own good.

Yahoo is causing Me fits and I was not able to get logged in until just now. I hate it when things do not go My way.

I curled up with "The book of Shadows" a bit ago and My eyes grew more and more tired the more I layed to read. How lovely it would have been to have a slave at My feet deeply rubbing the stress away that have reached the very bottom of My feet and soles.

For now I shall turn in. Deeply fall into My satin sheets and sleep the night away.

Here are some lyrics that I heard tonight. Hit a certain spot in My heart.
Songs tend to do that

If You only knew--Maroon 5
I wake up
Thoughts of you
Tattooed to my mind
I wonder
What to wear
What to eat
Who to be
Will I see you again?
My car breaks down
I shake my head, what a day
If you only knew
What I went through to get to you
I am hanging from you
I will hold on forever if you want me to
Every bus
Every train
Every cab, every lane is jammed
I just look into the sky and reached for the planes with my hands
If all my days go wrong
I will think about last night
It went so right

**If you stop here, please add a comment to simply let Me know that you stopped in.**

Blessed be kiddles,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-06-22T15:11:00.000-07:00

I have failed to write here as often as I would like. Vanilla life always seems to take a hold of Uus tightly and not let go until Wwe need it to.

I have had several wonderful people compliment My journal. Thank you for that. I enjoy writing here, it is My place to let go and let Goddess.

Today was spent doing the menial things that I hate, yet had to do. The house, the laundry all of that latter! Thankfully I am almost done and was able to sit and just write.

Just a quick update
Until later Kiddles!

All around you is spinning color
Like rainbows gone mad
A whirlpool of lights
A field of force that pulls you from your limbs
Whips through your hair
Like a wild windstorm
You feel the center of your being
A current that shakes you to the bones
Vibrates through you
Like an earthquake or tidal wave
You shake in the grip of her
Out of her chaos
You are born

2006-06-18T20:03:00.000-07:00

If I would be so lucky to climb inside of you would you say it wasn't right?
If I should ever find the key you hide so well could I spend the night?
Leaving your smell on my coat
Leaving your taste on my shoulder
I still fail to understand what it is about this woman

If I could bottle up the chills you give me, I would keep them in a jar next to my bed.
If I should ever draw a picture of a woman, it would be you flowing from my pen.

I will leave my clothes on the floor
Make Me walk out the door
I still fail to understand what it is about her

Helpless I am melting as I stand next to her... the sun
I am screaming out for more
Drink every drop of liquid heat that I have become
Pop me open and spit me out onto the floor

Leave your smell on my coat
Leave your taste on my shoulder
I still fail to understand what it is about this woman.

I love her

Lyrics--Maroon 5

Bright Blessings and Love,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-06-18T05:30:00.000-07:00

I was talking to Lady A the other day and said I really needed to sit here and post. It just so happens that this is the first time I have had to the time to sit and do so.

First of all I want to send most of My energy (The little bit I have this morning and do not need to sip My coffee) to Her and Her slave. They lost a little loved one and I know exactly how hard that can be. Please know that I love Yyou Bboth. Always and forever.

The other night as I was waiting for My sleeping pill to kick in (Insomniac) I was laying in bed staring out the window. The Moon surrounded Me with such conviction that I knew I could not ignore it.

On My journey through the Goddess world, Witches, Druids, Pagans.. ect... ect. ( I have never liked "labels" if you can tell by now) My search for the Goddess that mirrored My image has been both a long and beautiful one.

In My search through the beautiful Goddess Isis I found a piece of Myself, My Dominance and My spirituality all come to a full head at the very tip of My soul.

Isis also known by many names has opened My mind and body up to things I did not understand and many questions unanswered.

As I layed there with Her spirit cradling Me I felt piece. It was as if She was talking strictly to Me and only Me. Letting Me know that She was there, She was looking and watching and all I needed to do was let go and let Goddess.

I awoke the very next morning at peace. At peace with this journey and gained the patience that I needed for Myself.

It was a beautiful and memorable moment. One that I wanted to share with those that believe that the spirit truely exsists.

Bright Blessings kiddles!
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-06-15T20:05:00.000-07:00

I was finally able to get some rest last night. It had been several nights that I layed awake simply looking at the ceiling. I am growing tired tonight as well but wanted to update before I head off to slumber.

My chest if finally clearing of it's congestion and the cough is far less then it was. There is nothing worse then getting sick this time of year. With the central air it seems to hang on a bit more.

Have been trying to post more in the groups that I belong to. Seems I just never have enough time.
Goodnight for now littleones!

i am one of those who have served the Goddess
Here is my proof:
i have eaten from Her drum
i have drunk from Her cymbal
i have carried Her sacred objects
i have prayed in Her secret chambers

Bright Blessings,
Goddess Isis Moon

2006-06-13T20:15:00.000-07:00

Every Goddess has Her throne. A place where She likes to go and feels the most comfortable in. Mine is My bedroom.

My bedroom has black, white and gray tiles. It is all painted a crisp white. The walls, the ceiling and the woodwork. Adorning My windows (two that reach to the floor) are long red tab curtains. When the sun shines through the entire room is a beautiful shade of blood red. During the night it is pitch black. A shade that I so enjoy.

My walls are softly decorated with japanese symbols and pictures. Words of "Love", "Truth", "Goddess" and "Soul" hang above My bed. A king size bed with red satin sheets and a beautiful red comforter. It is a place where I do My meditation, My reading and My writing.

It is My place and very few are allowed to enter it.

~~When She entered the room, Her head reached to the top of the rooftops. The doorways shone with the brillance of all the heavens. The queen, filled with awe and fear, gave the Goddess a seat. She who brings the seasons, who gives the world so many gifts.
She hesitated, until a slave brought forth a fleece of silver and made a seat for the Goddess. She sat then, dear Goddess veiled and hidden. A long time She sat, not speaking, sorrowful; not smiling and silent with woe. Not eating nor drinking, but full of longing for her deep hearted slave, She was yet to find.~~

2006-06-12T16:40:00.000-07:00

So after I got done posting I get this email on Collarme. From a "man" who says he seeks a Dominant Woman. His first email states that he is looking for real love and life and that he seeks a Dominant Woman who can control him.
His profile states this.....

God made wife to serve her husband. To be his helper.

I very nicely wrote back to him.....

After reading your profile I can tell you that you are NOT for Me. I am a true Goddess and a lifestyle Mistress. There is not a submissive place in Me. Perhaps you should take off that you are seeking a "Dominant woman"

Nice huh! I could have really ripped into him for his stupid profile. Yet, I thought I would be nice and just say... thanks... but no thanks.

he then writes back.....

You will never find what you seek. you go against nature. A strong man is the true nature and his wife serves. you seek selfishness and a lie. you will cont. to be hurt and more then likely get a disease. your sad choice.

Now mind you. This was written with words that were misspelled and not in complete sentences. So I write back......

I can tell you right now. That if even if hell would freeze over and I did become submissive I would never become to submissive to a man who can not spell and write a total sentence. Get a grip and try to read some english books before you attempt to control anyone!

So in light of this recent event and this man totally pissing Me off I thought I would paste his profile. Giggles... payback is a bitch!

His screen name... Lov.

He seeks Dominant, submissive and switch women.
he seeks honest lady... cute nose...blah blah blah.

There ya go drew.... dumb ass. You do not F*** with a Goddess.

Giggles

Bright Blessings
Goddess Moon

2006-06-12T16:24:00.000-07:00

I have not really been around to post much. Things this weekend have been extremely busy and I have been under the weather. There is nothing worse then getting sick during the summer. It seems like any illness that is ailing you in the summertime takes forever to get rid of. For Myself this has to be true because I have been sick for over a week now.

What I need to do is just sleep until I feel better. Not an easy task even for a Goddess! I have been taking it easy today. Been catching up on My reading which I have been putting off for awhile now. Thank Goddess that I am able to do at least that.

Calling all slaves to come clean this house!

I suppose I am going to have to bring Myself to do that soon. Or the house may fall down around Me!

Anyhow.. will update later...just wanted Yya'll to know that I am still alive........

Maybe!

Bright Blessings,
Goddess Moon

2006-06-09T06:55:00.000-07:00

I am the Goddess, Mistress of the land
It is I who created unbreakable laws
It is I who divided the earth and heavens
It is I who charted the stars
It is I who set the moon and sun overhead
It is I who ordered the tides to roll
It is I who brought men and woman together
and I who created all the mysteries
It is I who made the justice of love stronger then wealth
and I who designed penalities for evil
It is I who first created mercy
and I who metes it out
I am the queen of earth, wind and sea
Queen of the thunder, Queen of the sun
Only I can overcome fate
Only I can overcome Love

Song of Isis
[THE GODDESS COMPANION--PATRICIA MONAGHAN]

2006-06-02T19:24:00.000-07:00

I come into contact with quite a few submissives. After My many, many, perhaps TOO MANY years in the lifestyle I can pretty much tell who they are and put them into the catagories that they belong in. Of course I do not claim to know everything but I am fairly familier with the "types" that I and many Domme's run into.

Type 1--
The Internet Married geek. Usually only on at night or really early in the morning while he can sneek in some time away from his wife. Simply wants to get off and find on outlet for the things that his wife will not do to him. More then likely found out about BDSM from a porno magazine in some sleazy porn shop.

Type 2--
The chatroom submissive. Knows each and everything thing to do in a chat room and does it with ease. Lives through other peoples "real" lives because he does not have the balls to live it himself.

Type 3--
The "I want to be a true submissive" type. Also known as the "I am submissive as long as it suits me and I get My way" type. Have been in contact with at least 3 of these in the last 3 weeks. They talk a good talk and run with their tails between their legs when you need them to walk the walk.

Type 4--
Prime example--angel
The I will do whatever it takes to please You. Polite, subservient, sweet and kind. Does whatever you ask of them and does not ask questions. Have personality and spunk. Yet listens and tames it when you need them to. Very rare, yet very wonderful. They are the "True" type. Usually end up being hurt or having someone that is an ass take advantage of them.

Type 5--
The robot, no personality, doormat type. Sadly they really do still exsist. Usually this way because someone who called themselves "Dominant" fucked them up and they are stuck somewhere between a rock and a hard place.
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Type 4 is very rare to find. Sure you can find it but most are a mixture of all types. There really are true submissives out there. It just takes patience and love to make sure they are what you hope for.

Lady Moon

2006-06-01T19:57:00.000-07:00

Sitting here I know that I need to write but I just can not gather the heart to do so. I am not sure what is wrong, I can not pinpoint it. Yet there is something not right.

So here....

Another summer day
Come and gone away
In paris and rome
But I wanna go home
Maybe surrounded by a milion people
Yet I just wanna go home
I miss you, you know
I have been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby how are you?"
I would send them but I know it is just not enough
My words cold and flat
You deserve more then that
Another airplane
Another sunny place
I am lucky I know
But I wanna go home
I have got to go home
Let Me go home
I am just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
I feel like I am living someone elses life
Like I stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know why you could not come along with me
This was not your dream
But you have always believed in Me
Another winter day
Has come and gone away
In paris and Rome
I wanna go home

I will write tomorrow.... maybe.

Lady Moon

2006-05-31T19:26:00.000-07:00

It really does seem like forever since I have written. I suppose it really has been. I feel that the universe has tilted Me a bit. As if everything is colliding a bit. Not really sure why and I can not pin point it but something is off kilter.

I have smudged, I have burnt sage to clean these thoughts, yet nothing seems to be working. I am sure that the universe is trying to tell Me something yet I must not be listening as well as I could.

I feel as if I am overwhelmed. When in essence I am not overwhelmed at all, but perhaps lack of sleep and My mind racing when I do try to rest is making it near impossible to feel normal these days.

Just wanted to write quickly... I promise to write tomorrow when My mind is a bit more clearer.

Lady Moon

2006-05-27T04:05:00.000-07:00

I get asked a lot how I "knew" I was Dominant. So I will answer here in hopes that those that are just seeking themselves will find a better understanding.

I, and I have said it before, am a firm believer in it is WHO you are not WHAT you are. I know that there are submissive men and women that can not be submissive in their daily lives. Saying that and going with the flow does not mean that they are not submissive. It simply means that they have to fit into society. Being submissive does not mean that they are submissive to everyone. It means that who they are stems from wanting and needing to find their Dominant couterpart.
That is where I come in and so do many true Dominants.

Unlike our submissive opposites Dominants are Dominant in their everyday lives. Yes there are expections to every rule of course but I think that the majority is still Dominant in everyday vanilla life. Yes We have bosses that tell us what to do, yes we yield to traffic signs and take bullshit in the grocery store. But it is easier to be Dominant in everyday life. People may call us a bitch or a dick for doing so but I believe it is far more accepted in society then to be submissive on a daily outside basis.

Back to My point ( I seemed to have gotten off that point a minute,not unusual I know). I knew I was dominant from the second I was born. I always batted My eyes and got My way. Yes in college I was able to finally put a name with what I was, but even as a child I was the Dominanting force. I think that we all have stories that stemmed our lifestyle background.

Anyway.. just a thought this morning

In love, light and true Dominance,
Lady Moon

2006-05-25T03:07:00.000-07:00

A quick entry this morning!

I want WANT WANT the entire box set of the Sex in the City DVD's. I have been wanting them for over a year and just never got around to it.

I thought I would throw that thought out to the Goddess's and see what happens!

So there... there is an item on My wish list!

Lady Moon