The moon was beautiful last night. I know because I must have layed there for hours just thinking and staring at it.

I have recently just had a name change. For many different reasons. Have had one name and ID for Many years so perhaps I was on a bad foot from the start as I started this new journey. A new journey that really tore My heart. I guess I sort of knew it was coming but I still was not ready for it.


So here I am again.. spilling My heart to a blank piece of paper. Funny how life recycles itself.

Fill myself up with false hope
I wish the world I was not me today
With no direction at all
I am losing faith in everything
My alone time
I can see for the first time
Hurt won't just go away
I watch dreams die off
Hurts to believe that words are just words
Dwelling on my own thoughts
Choking on self proclaimed love
Venting my own faults
For the shadows collapse in my heart
Shifts a flame to the pain
Distant feelings deep inside of me
It will go away won't it?