No title line?

For some reason there seems to be no title line in the blogger anymore not sure why.

Anywho... I have not written for a few days. I suppose I have just been out of it. Been a bit down in the dumps and thinking way too much. I am bothered by the fact people come in and out of your life so quickly that you never really get a chance to say goodbye even when you want to.

I have finally gotten a chance to sit down and read A different loving. I bought the book 2 years ago and just skimmed through it never getting the chance to sit and read through. Thankfully today I was able to sit down a read a bit. Went to the munch here last night. It was very nice but there is only 1 male submissive in the entire group. The majority of course is Male Dominant/female submissive. Not that I do not get along with both the Dominant and subbies but it is nice to have your counterpart present.

Back on My search for a submissive. Although I am not entirely sure I am 100% ready but I do know that I will not just sit and be upset the last one did not work out. I have to get right back on the wagon.

Just been sort of depressed in knowing that I really wanted it to work out and it didn't. Down because I know that it took all the courage in the world to get back into the search and now I am left wondering exactly what happened. Even though it was explained I can not help wondering what road I turned wrong on.

I know smiles will come and tears will seize.

But will I be strong enough to give all I have.

Back on the wagon again. I was severly heartbroken in a long relationship and decided after a year it was time to look again. Did not work right out of the gate but I know that I have to keep on track.

Can not seem to write anymore.... will post a song that hits the heart tonight.

I would have given you all of my heart
There is someone who has torn it apart
She's taking almost all I've got
but if you want, I will try to love again
I will try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
When it comes to being lucky she is cursed
When it comes to loving me she is the worst
When it comes to being loved she is first
That is how I know the first cut is the deepest
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears I have cried
If you want I will try to love again
But I know the first cut is the deepest