Growls

I just wrote a long post and the computer crashed. Is that an example of how this Domme's day is going to be? Lets sure the hell hope not or it would be a shitty start to an already dreary day.

The weather here has been anything but glourious. Rain has kissed every single day last week and this so far. I have veggies and flowers to plant, yet can never seem to get outside to do so. I suppose I am too much of a Girly Girl to plant My ass in dirt and get drenched on. Although I enjoy the outdoors more then anything else, I just can not bring Myself to get out there yet.

I am trying to get a few work things done from home today. Not sure if it is a blessing or a curse. I think I get too distracted sitting here and doing things. The washer stops... I get up. The phone rings... I get up. Not sure I will get anything done the way things are going.

I missed a play party last night. Not too sure if I am upset that I did not get to go... or glad. I am way past the point of just playing for the sake to play. I am looking for the whole package not just a bare bottom to spank. I think when you are in this lifestyle for a very long time that sexual aspect (Which is a wonderful thing do not get me wrong) sort of wears out, you realize that there is sooo many other things that You want and need.

I had a submissive tell Me that My blogs sounded so sad. I suppose he is right a bit but I only write here from My heart. A bit of Me is sad because I know that the submissive I am searching for is having just a hard time finding Me as I am having finding him.

Sleep did not come last night. I am not really sure why. There was nothing in particular bothering Me, I just could not rest My mind and body enough to get some well needed rest. Perhaps tonight will go a bit better.

For now.....
In true Dominance
Lady Moon