I am not really sure why the time posted on My posts are all so off. I have clearly yet to figure out exactly why. Whatever time it says, it is not 4:14 am and I am just unable to sleep.

It is a wonderful night for it. Tis pouring rain outside and you can feel the temp drop as the storms move in. Light snow showers are to grace us here in a few days and My heart is awaiting in patiently.

I hate nights like this. When your body just wants to sleep and your mind says otherwise. I must have stared at the ceiling for more then an hour. My body wanted to just soak itself deep into My satin sheets but My eyes open and awake.



I opened the french doors off of My room and layed sideways on top of the sheets. Slipping My jammies off to cool off thinking perhaps it was just too stuffy in there. Did not work.



Yet I did lay and enjoy what moon peeked through the storm clouds and lit up My room.
A million thoughts rushing into My head and over My body, mirroring the rain hitting the grass outside.

I tried a hot cup of tea. Making it boiling hot so it would cool as I ran My bath, hopped in, soaked and lightly dried off. Pulling the covers over My body, sipping My tea.

Sleep did not come.

I tried fulfilling My urges... alone yet again. Cumming time and time again.



Sleep did not come.

I sorted through My toybag. Walking through memory lane as I took out each thing.

Sleep did not come.

I lit a candle and grabbed a book. Read for nearly an hour. Thinking perhaps it would make My eyes tired enough to shut.



Sleep did not come.

I wrote in My paper journal for the second time today. My aches, needs and urges spilling out on burnt edged paper. My eyes welling, My heart racing, My body aching.

Sleep did not come.

I grabbed My meditation mat and sat My bottom down. Taking Myself off to somewhere far away with someone I loved.

Sleep did not come.

I went through writing down what herbs I needed. What essential oils were low. What candles needed to be restocked.

Sleep did not come.

I am not really sure exactly why sleep did not kiss Me tonight. Perhaps My aches are just too deep. Perhaps the urges of need, much to strong.

So here I am. Writing again. Digging through a million pictures to post to pass the time.

My urges and desires running hot. Melting everything around Me and I can smell the lust burning from within. I want to be filled. Full of what I need and want. I know that they will run until I have that taste. That need filled to the brim of Me.



I have never been one of those Women, Dominant or not, who denies who and what She is. I know I am raw, open, vulnerable at times. I like it that way. There are not many people who understand it, yet it is Me. I would say to you if you do not like it then eat Me.

Yet I may just like it! Alright, who the hell am I kidding? I want it.

Anywho....

Whatever the case may be, I am praying to the Goddess's that I get a nap sometime today or I am gonna be one bitchy Domme.