I find My mind drifting to far places this morning. Unable to think of just one thing, yet a million things all rushing in and colliding with each other.

Sitting here listening to the rain hit the window, listening to the thunder bolts outside and I notice My breathe deeper as each strikes. I have the utter desire today to be peeled open. To have each and ever layer of Myself exposed for the world to see. It is something that I do not do. Something I try to avoid, yet today for some reason I feel it would be leave Me vulerable. With that said, being vulnerable does not scare Me. In fact it tends to do the exact opposite. I enjoy being vulnerable and being able to just let go and be. The part of that I do not enjoy is that it seems there are far too many people anymore that take that vulnerable state and walk all over it. Eating you up and spitting you out before they even get a taste.

I think in life W/we all have to be vulnerable some. I have and will always be an open book. I have nothing to hide nor do I lie about who or what I am. I am always amazed at people who do and find Myself shaking My head and never quite grasping the concept of "white lies" let alone black ones. I have never feared tapping into Myself or speaking truth in what I know. I know that people do not always mean to lie or to tell small stories, yet knowing thyself is a practice few remember.

On days like these, where the rain is so beautifully sweeping the dirt away I become almost docile in My heart. Those romantic tendencies bubble up and I wonder if chivlary still readily exsists in this world. Will there be that submissive who aches when I am not near because he can not breathe as well without Me? Will there be that one who is comfortable enough within himself to be able to express that love and adoration he has in the realm that is Me? I could sit here and write a million questions. Yet, those questions have no answers as of yet.

When I know, you'll know, ya know?

So I will not stress about those answers. The wind shall carry them to Me when I am to know.

As of now, I will continue to look out at the rain and watch as it washes everything away. In hopes that *My* submissive will see My relection in a muddle puddle and swim on home.