I have not written here in awhile. I have not really felt like sitting here and going through the things that have been on My mind and weighing on My body.

For those that have been close to Me awhile they are aware of the health problems that I have had after the birth of My son. For those that are not up to speed I will get you there.

After I had a C section with My son I had extreme scarring tissue and a favorable size mass left over in My tummy. Diagnosed as a "hematoma", I was told that over the next 18 months it should go away and shrink in size. Yet when it was shrinking and draining the left over blood and such it would cause Me great pain. It started sunday when I thought perhaps I was getting the flu and seeped over to yesterday. Last night it started to cause Me great pain and I ended up in the ER. I have never been one to cry wolf and usually deal with things fairly well. Yet this morning around 3:00am the pain and fever was almost too much to bear. Scopes and Ctscans later, it was proven to be the same thing as it was 6 months ago.

Today I feel as if someone has hit Me with a mack truck and all I want to do is sleep. I have a doctors appointment later this afternoon and need to refill the percacet that I was given last night (About the only thing keeping Me alive it feels).

I am of course, alright and going to survive. Although I must wholeheartedly admit it surely does not feel like it today.

I just am lucky I have family and friends around to care for Me.

Anyhow... I just wanted to quickly update. I am outta commission. So to those I speak to on a regular basis, please do not feel that I am pushing you outta the loop. When I am sick or in pain, I am one that just wants to be left alone.

Love to Y/you all.