Anyone who truely knows Me, knows that sometimes I can get very dark. That there are times in My life when I need to be the most Sadistic. Tonight is one of those nights. Not to say that in My normal D/s relationships I am not Sadistic, for I am. Yet tonight there is just something calling out to Me and I wish that I could act upon it.

To have that slave at My feet just waiting for the next order. Hearing him breathe deeply and feel him get to the point that needing Me almost is a Sadistic act in itself.

It has been awhile since I have had the flogger in My hand. Since I have heard the stingy sound of the Buggy Whip or the smack of the crop. It has been awhile since I have had a submissive clutching the bed in tears telling Me how much he loves Me and is thankfully I care for him so much.

As I sit here and write this, having all those beautiful things go through My head it makes My heart hurt and My body ache. Ache in a way I have not felt in a very long time. It is very rare that I ache for those things. Although I know that it is a very good thing that, that thirst and hunger is still there. The wanting, aching and needing. Sometimes the journey itself is long and drawn out so I am glad to know that those desires are feeding Me still.

For Me the small acts of servitude and love from a slave is normally what sustains Me. Yet tonight there is such a stronger and deeper need floating inside of Me.

I know that slave will come to Me when it is meant to be. Yet I am ready Damn it!

Blessed be,
Goddess Moon