I am not sure what has come over Me tonight. My mind seems to not be able to settle itself. I have mentioned before in My many bloggings that there are times that I tend to get dark. Dark to Me is not a scary thing, nor is it something that I shy away from. My mind when that darkness comes over Me tends to run away with My normally everyday thoughts. Making it hard to focus and My heart gets sentimental.

Allows Me to tap into the feelings that I have supressed or feelings that are new and upcoming for Me. When in that dark state I tend to do My best meditation and magical work. When feeling this way I want romance and deep sadistic urnings to be fulfilled.
My mind can never keep up with My fingers as I write extensively in My journals.

Tonight the darkness of night seems to call to Me. As if there is a soft whisper in the air waiting for Me to simply act upon it. My heart feels as if it could not ache any harder. Twisting and kneeding within My chest. Urning to feel the submissive that seeks Me in the darkness as well.

Time stands still for no one. This W/we all know for fact, yet there are times in life where it feels time is moving in slow motion. That even with it moving so slow W/we are unable to keep up. Tonight is one of those moments where I want to stand and scream. Pulling at My hair and My clothes. Knowing that he too is out there. he too is out wandering in the darkness waiting to bump into the one he knows is true. W/we may both be wandering alone in this darkness. Yet I will find him.

So in My mind I scream.

"I know you are out there My love. I am coming for you. The journey is long but please believe that I will find you. Trust in Me that I will find you."

Do not get Me wrong, I am a very patient person. I know that when the time is meant for that darkness to clear it will. I enjoy this darkness, this wandering. I too know that this entry will make sense to noone but I. So I shall close and know that My mind will stay dark for the moment and I shall enjoy it.