It really does seem like forever since I have written. I suppose it really has been. I feel that the universe has tilted Me a bit. As if everything is colliding a bit. Not really sure why and I can not pin point it but something is off kilter.

I have smudged, I have burnt sage to clean these thoughts, yet nothing seems to be working. I am sure that the universe is trying to tell Me something yet I must not be listening as well as I could.

I feel as if I am overwhelmed. When in essence I am not overwhelmed at all, but perhaps lack of sleep and My mind racing when I do try to rest is making it near impossible to feel normal these days.

Just wanted to write quickly... I promise to write tomorrow when My mind is a bit more clearer.

Lady Moon

I get asked a lot how I "knew" I was Dominant. So I will answer here in hopes that those that are just seeking themselves will find a better understanding.

I, and I have said it before, am a firm believer in it is WHO you are not WHAT you are. I know that there are submissive men and women that can not be submissive in their daily lives. Saying that and going with the flow does not mean that they are not submissive. It simply means that they have to fit into society. Being submissive does not mean that they are submissive to everyone. It means that who they are stems from wanting and needing to find their Dominant couterpart.
That is where I come in and so do many true Dominants.

Unlike our submissive opposites Dominants are Dominant in their everyday lives. Yes there are expections to every rule of course but I think that the majority is still Dominant in everyday vanilla life. Yes We have bosses that tell us what to do, yes we yield to traffic signs and take bullshit in the grocery store. But it is easier to be Dominant in everyday life. People may call us a bitch or a dick for doing so but I believe it is far more accepted in society then to be submissive on a daily outside basis.

Back to My point ( I seemed to have gotten off that point a minute,not unusual I know). I knew I was dominant from the second I was born. I always batted My eyes and got My way. Yes in college I was able to finally put a name with what I was, but even as a child I was the Dominanting force. I think that we all have stories that stemmed our lifestyle background.

Anyway.. just a thought this morning

In love, light and true Dominance,
Lady Moon

A quick entry this morning!

I want WANT WANT the entire box set of the Sex in the City DVD's. I have been wanting them for over a year and just never got around to it.

I thought I would throw that thought out to the Goddess's and see what happens!

So there... there is an item on My wish list!

Lady Moon

What a long long long long day! Oh did I tell you it was long?
Spent most of the morning helping Lady A with Her protocol rules for one of Her submissives. She can really rack ones brain! We of course together came up with some doosys! Put two Domme's together and They really have a ball! Her and I have so much fun together. She called yesterday and We laughed so hard that I thought I would pee My pants! I love Her with all My heart.

The afternoon and evening was spent running around to the point that I thought My feet would fall off. It poured rain here most of the afternoon and evening that it made Me just want to nap!

Tomorrow sadly is much of the same.

Over the last two days I have been gathering all My sub/slave rules and such together. I had meant to go back over them just had not found the time. I now have it started. THANK GODDESS. It is always nice to have it since everyone asks what they are and I get really sick of saying it over and over again.
~~Thanks again to Sis Lady A for helping Me sort through it~~

Talked again with angel. she really is such a sweet soul. I have this need to protect her. I do not get that often, but with her I want to protect her from everything.

I just wanted to write quickly... so there...quickly!
Giggles
Lady Moon

I feel a bit of frustration this morning. It is funny to Me how life constantly recycles itself. How things are important one day then aren't the next.

There are a few advice things I would like to give.

First off...Asking Me questions such as "Do you like Your A*s licked, Would you have me suck c*ck?" will not get you very far with Me. you do not speak to your mother that way... don't speak to Me that way.

RESPECT IS GIVEN WHEN RESPECT IS EARNED.

I do not expect you to bow down to Me before Me meet face to face but I do expect some respect and spats need to be a minimum. If I ask things of you, I expect you to do them. How on earth will I know you are the submissive for Me, if right off the bat you can not open out or listen to simple instructions?

When I say... "Don't invite Me to chat" that means... just what it says. Trying to invite Me several times, over and over again will only get you on the ignore button. My time is precious and I only give it to those I want to give it to.

Let Me also clear something up...
I believe in Female Supremacy. I am a lifestyle Dominant.
A lifestyle Dominant is someone who's entire life is surrounded by that fact. It is not just something I play or something that I touch on when I want to get laid. It is who I am. NOT WHAT I AM.
Huge difference.
With that said you must understand that I have a regular life as well. I have children, I have a business and I have a life. You will have to flow into that mix.. not stick out of that like a sore thumb. I can tell lies from a mile away. So if you think you are fooling anyone... you aren't.

It is funny how someone comes into your life like a wave then goes out of it just as quick. A word of advice... if you can not handle the heat.. get outta the kitchen. Life has snags, so do relationships. It is how you work them out that makes you who you are. Running from them just gets you nowhere and gives no end.

Shew.... what a vent... I feel better now!

Now on to bigger and better things.

I have been talking to the sweetest female submissive this past week. She honestly has to be one of the sweeter people I know. She has become an addiction like My morning coffee! I just wanted to send her hugs and acknowlegable she is a wonderful addition to My life.

In love, light and true Dominance,
Lady Moon

I said that I would be posting about Goddess Isis. Who She is, What She is about and what Her needs and traits are. So I thought I would do that this morning.

Goddess Isis... pronounced "I" sis is the egyptian Goddess of Magic and Giver of life.
She is the essence of utter femininity. To this day the celebration of the flooding of the Nile is still used by Muslims. It is named "The night of the tear drop". A rememberance of Goddess Isis love Osiris, her tears so painful that they made the Nile River overflow.
She was born on the first day between the first year of creation. She was worshipped and loved by her followers. She gave birth to Horus the god of sun. Together they created and sustained life and were saviors to their people. She became the most powerful of all Goddess's.


Isis seeked intense emotional experiences and possess a wide range of love and knowledge. She has a complex personality and finds herself uneasy if not centered. She strives to be authentic. She likes to have fun, to laugh and to joke. Most Isis women pay considerable attention to their appearances. Choosing something that is both usual and romantic. Her moods are expressive and spontaneous. She has a nice smile and is usually in a good mood.

Isis is always scanning her enviroment. She sees life as an exciting drama, yet sometimes over interprets things. She is self confident and optimistic. A natural leader. She is enthusiastic, high spirited, imaginative and is good at solving problems. She is infectious and usually finds that this charisma draws followers whether she desires them or not. She is stubborn, independent and refuses subordination from others. She finds new and innovative ways of doing things. She has an unconventional soul and is an individualist.

Tolerent and broadminded she has impact on peoples hearts like no other. She is one whom believes that "your heart rules your head" and has good access on her feelings. Though it may leave her vulnerable, wearing her heart on her sleeve makes others comfortable sharing themselves. She is fairly simple and is not difficult to please. She is ready to question and challenge others and traditional values. She tolerates chaos and disorder that others would find uncomfortable.

Her self discipline enables her to go forth with difficult tasks and stay on track without being distracted. She usually takes on a friendly approach rather then forceful, but becomes forceful when her heart is full. She is assertive and tenderhearted. She can at times be intimidating.

Isis makes a very commited partner, seeking to find a soul mate is more then just words. She is charming, gentle and sympathetic but expects complete control. She is not by nature very thick skinned. She expects her partner to give more then She is giving.

I hope this helps those who asked about the name. She and I are simliar in everyway that I have found. It is such a blessing to have learned and taken the name of Goddess Isis.

In love, light and true Dominance,
Lady Isis Moon

It has been a few days since I have written. Things have just been too busy for My own good. I have had several people ask where the name Goddess Isis Moon comes from and I am hoping to explain it, in the next few days.

I did a bit of fetish shopping last night as it seemed I could not sleep. Bought some REALLY cute leather thigh high boots. Lets just hope they fit My short legs! Giggles

Sometimes it is just nice to "window shop" too since you can not always buy what you want, when You want it!

I have met some wonderful people on collarme lately. Those that are friends and one someone special. I am hoping that this journey will continue.

Well I just wanted to write quickly... need to get some laundry done.

In true Dominance,
Lady Moon

Growls

I just wrote a long post and the computer crashed. Is that an example of how this Domme's day is going to be? Lets sure the hell hope not or it would be a shitty start to an already dreary day.

The weather here has been anything but glourious. Rain has kissed every single day last week and this so far. I have veggies and flowers to plant, yet can never seem to get outside to do so. I suppose I am too much of a Girly Girl to plant My ass in dirt and get drenched on. Although I enjoy the outdoors more then anything else, I just can not bring Myself to get out there yet.

I am trying to get a few work things done from home today. Not sure if it is a blessing or a curse. I think I get too distracted sitting here and doing things. The washer stops... I get up. The phone rings... I get up. Not sure I will get anything done the way things are going.

I missed a play party last night. Not too sure if I am upset that I did not get to go... or glad. I am way past the point of just playing for the sake to play. I am looking for the whole package not just a bare bottom to spank. I think when you are in this lifestyle for a very long time that sexual aspect (Which is a wonderful thing do not get me wrong) sort of wears out, you realize that there is sooo many other things that You want and need.

I had a submissive tell Me that My blogs sounded so sad. I suppose he is right a bit but I only write here from My heart. A bit of Me is sad because I know that the submissive I am searching for is having just a hard time finding Me as I am having finding him.

Sleep did not come last night. I am not really sure why. There was nothing in particular bothering Me, I just could not rest My mind and body enough to get some well needed rest. Perhaps tonight will go a bit better.

For now.....
In true Dominance
Lady Moon

I do not write here the way that I should. I know that and I need to make it a daily ritual of doing so. Perhaps that is something I can work on.

I had someone tell Me that My posts sounded sad. I suppose he is right a bit. Although I do not feel sad everyday, I am aware that I am on this journey that seems to be leading to nowhere or off very slow. I have been in this lifestyle for a very long time and know that the journey that I am on will be very long, may end up on a dead end road or not last very long. With knowing that I am still trudging on in hopes that I find that one that completes what I am looking for.

There is such a wide range of lifestyle choices that finding the one that is looking for the same thing is a hard feat. I have faith in My Dominance and faith in My heart that I will find him.

Lady Moon

Still no title post I am not entirely sure why. It drives Me nuts when things do not work out the way I want them to!

I have talked to a few submissives here and there. The search I know will never be easy but there has to be the 2nd half to My 1st. I am sure that he is looking as hard for Me as I am looking for him.

You run through so many that swear they are what You are looking for or that they "REALLY" want to be submissive. In truth they don't. They freak out when You start controling small aspects of their lives. What I think so many submissives do not understand is that it is not always fun for a Dominant to have to go through such in depth training with a submissive to get him to the point that She wants him to be. It can be long and hard work but the outcome is one of the sweetest tasting fruits One will ever eat.

A D/s relationship is one that many do not understand. One that sadly few will ever know. I know that in My heart My submissive will find Me out here roaming alone in the dark.

No title line?

For some reason there seems to be no title line in the blogger anymore not sure why.

Anywho... I have not written for a few days. I suppose I have just been out of it. Been a bit down in the dumps and thinking way too much. I am bothered by the fact people come in and out of your life so quickly that you never really get a chance to say goodbye even when you want to.

I have finally gotten a chance to sit down and read A different loving. I bought the book 2 years ago and just skimmed through it never getting the chance to sit and read through. Thankfully today I was able to sit down a read a bit. Went to the munch here last night. It was very nice but there is only 1 male submissive in the entire group. The majority of course is Male Dominant/female submissive. Not that I do not get along with both the Dominant and subbies but it is nice to have your counterpart present.

Back on My search for a submissive. Although I am not entirely sure I am 100% ready but I do know that I will not just sit and be upset the last one did not work out. I have to get right back on the wagon.

Just been sort of depressed in knowing that I really wanted it to work out and it didn't. Down because I know that it took all the courage in the world to get back into the search and now I am left wondering exactly what happened. Even though it was explained I can not help wondering what road I turned wrong on.

I know smiles will come and tears will seize.

But will I be strong enough to give all I have.

Back on the wagon again. I was severly heartbroken in a long relationship and decided after a year it was time to look again. Did not work right out of the gate but I know that I have to keep on track.

Can not seem to write anymore.... will post a song that hits the heart tonight.

I would have given you all of my heart
There is someone who has torn it apart
She's taking almost all I've got
but if you want, I will try to love again
I will try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
When it comes to being lucky she is cursed
When it comes to loving me she is the worst
When it comes to being loved she is first
That is how I know the first cut is the deepest
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears I have cried
If you want I will try to love again
But I know the first cut is the deepest

The moon was beautiful last night. I know because I must have layed there for hours just thinking and staring at it.

I have recently just had a name change. For many different reasons. Have had one name and ID for Many years so perhaps I was on a bad foot from the start as I started this new journey. A new journey that really tore My heart. I guess I sort of knew it was coming but I still was not ready for it.


So here I am again.. spilling My heart to a blank piece of paper. Funny how life recycles itself.

Fill myself up with false hope
I wish the world I was not me today
With no direction at all
I am losing faith in everything
My alone time
I can see for the first time
Hurt won't just go away
I watch dreams die off
Hurts to believe that words are just words
Dwelling on my own thoughts
Choking on self proclaimed love
Venting my own faults
For the shadows collapse in my heart
Shifts a flame to the pain
Distant feelings deep inside of me
It will go away won't it?

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