Getting ready to do My cermonial rituals for All Souls Day and the Witches New year fairly soon but wanted to sit and write quickly.

I will be doing some meditation, drawing down the moon and making sure I list My hopes for the new year. I baked some lovely Samhain cookies with sage and mint today and bought a lovely bottle of wine for celebration. Tis very cold outside tonight so I will be calling My circle indoors this year. With the way I have been feeling tis probably best that way.

Took the time today to make My black and orange candles. As well as adding My Gold (Represents the God's) and Silver (The Goddess) to My circle. I have all My candles burning in My windows, My pumpkins burning bright with the candle inside, cookies and a chalice of wine sitting on My front porch. Making sure that the loved ones surrounding Me that have passed know I am here and open to seeing them and recieving their love and wishes. Tonight should be very active. The air is very cold and thin.

Went with a girlfriend friday night out to dinner and to see Saw 3. It was quite the scary movie. Her and I always loved horror flicks even as kids. So it is always the two of us that tend to flock whenever one comes out. It was far better then the last two. At least I thought so.

Her and I grew up together. She lived two houses down from Mine and we were always together. I was a wild kid, yet she made Me look like a Mother Saint. She was always the one doing the pot, getting smashed and arrested. I on the other hand, had a father who was a police officer and knew My way around sneaking VERY well. She always got caught, I never did.

It is always funny to Me when we go out now. She married a Baptist Minister and is all god fearing. We normally do not talk much about it but as we were out friday I wanted her to pull into the Adult Toy Shop. She of course didn't and I had to hear a huge lecture about it. Goddess love her!

Anyhow,
I am off to get ready for My ceremony.

Blessed be E/everyone and Happy Samhain!

Goddess Isis Moon

About a week ago I recieved an email from someone whom is not normally in My contact list. This male submissive (so he claims) wrote Me about My blog. I was not sure exactly how I was going to respond but thought I would go ahead and do so here. I normally am not one that airs dirty laundry and of course will not disclose any information that he sent to Me but felt that it was needed to post. His email is as follows, bad spelling and all. **Loves when people can't even spell the work Dominant.**


GoddessIsisMoon,(That is not even a Dominate name)

I have been reading your diary for 2 months or so. There are a fw things that I would like to say to you. Why on gods green earth do you even call yourself Dominate? you say that this is a Dominate diary and all you talk about it the weather, your health/. your dreams and how horny you were the night befor.

A dominate girl writes about hiting someone, making them criy and most of all having them serv you. Dominatatition is not about love. Or is it about "Taking someone under the wing". It is about pain and sex.

Perhaps you should put your diary under a diferent catagoirey.

Good luck...wiht the rate you are goin I am guesing you will need it.

Now......
I responded as this.....

Your email did not bother Me at all. If that was the angle that you were trying for, I am sorry to say it failed. I see a lot of your type sadly. The type that has a totally screwed up sense of what a true D/s relationship is and the deep potential that it can and should hold.

To My knowledge My blogger is not just listed under the D/s catagory. In fact, I was not aware that there was a "Catagory" placement at all. In the "About Me" section of My blog it lists several things that make up Me as a whole. D/s not being the one and only thing. I have no need to write about it every single minute of the day. It is not a role that I play but who and what I am. I am not a mother every second, a witch every second or a Dominant every second. I am just Me. The entire circle of what makes Me who I am surrounds Me on a constant basis. It does not waver nor does it need to slap anyone in the face all the time either.

I am guessing that you are either really, really new to the D/s realm or that you are a man who enjoys sitting at his computer jacking his cock off to anything that has sex, fucking or the latter in the title. There are plenty of porn sites online that you can few. My blogger is not one of them.

Good luck in all your future needs,
Goddess Isis Moon
(Which is a Goddess from Egypt)--Research

BTW... The word is DOMINANT


The email did not bother Me or make Me angry. It just proved what I have believed all along. W/we as a whole, those in the D/s community have a responsiblity to educate those that clearly show U/us in a bad light.

This guy had no clue, clearly. If he had come to Me wanting information I would have had no problem giving it to him. Yet, so many come believing that they get it when in turn they have no idea.

So... mr. blog reader.... if you want to know... ask.

I feel a tad better this morning. Last night proved to thankfully be a night full of rest and I feel a bit fresher this morning. I believe the saying "When it rains it pours". Seems like everything is hitting Me from every angle possible. Ironically I am okay with that. I am used to being tested.

Although I must admit it has been a time that I needed. Not the pain or sickness of course but the quiet. The docile movement of everyday life and just cuddle My kids. As I have said a million times over, I believe each and everything happens for a certain reason. Why I got this sick, I do not know. Yet, it was time My body got My attention to just slow down and take a deep breath. I have enjoyed doing just that. Now, if the pain would just go away I would be one happy woman.

Over the last month or so I have come in contact with some very shitty submissives and some quite wonderful ones. I have been lucky that the good have outweighed the bad by 110%. Yet, I am starting to think that if the net BDSM community came together and seeped out the names of those that W/we know are players then it would save U/us a world of both hurt and time.

I am starting to think that those players do not understand that there really is a live, breathing person on the other end of that internet line. That even those who are Dominant live a regular everyday life and have a heart that beats just like theirs.

Sadly I do not have to list their names here because I am betting money that they still come here to live through Me and know well enough who they are. Tsk Tsk. Did your momma not teach you better then this?

The weather here has been beautiful. Gloomy and plum cold to most but beautiful and silent to Me. Cold, grey, windy. Is there any better blend then that?

Nope, nothing better.
At least nothing G-rated!

I am slowly but surely starting to feel better. I wish it would happen a bit faster but nevertheless it is happening.

Added a new feature to the blog, hopefully I can get it working. Tis still a work in progress.

I just wanted to update quickly. Perhaps I will have the strength to sit here tomorrow and write just a bit more.

Goddess Isis Moon

I have not written here in awhile. I have not really felt like sitting here and going through the things that have been on My mind and weighing on My body.

For those that have been close to Me awhile they are aware of the health problems that I have had after the birth of My son. For those that are not up to speed I will get you there.

After I had a C section with My son I had extreme scarring tissue and a favorable size mass left over in My tummy. Diagnosed as a "hematoma", I was told that over the next 18 months it should go away and shrink in size. Yet when it was shrinking and draining the left over blood and such it would cause Me great pain. It started sunday when I thought perhaps I was getting the flu and seeped over to yesterday. Last night it started to cause Me great pain and I ended up in the ER. I have never been one to cry wolf and usually deal with things fairly well. Yet this morning around 3:00am the pain and fever was almost too much to bear. Scopes and Ctscans later, it was proven to be the same thing as it was 6 months ago.

Today I feel as if someone has hit Me with a mack truck and all I want to do is sleep. I have a doctors appointment later this afternoon and need to refill the percacet that I was given last night (About the only thing keeping Me alive it feels).

I am of course, alright and going to survive. Although I must wholeheartedly admit it surely does not feel like it today.

I just am lucky I have family and friends around to care for Me.

Anyhow... I just wanted to quickly update. I am outta commission. So to those I speak to on a regular basis, please do not feel that I am pushing you outta the loop. When I am sick or in pain, I am one that just wants to be left alone.

Love to Y/you all.

I am not really sure why the time posted on My posts are all so off. I have clearly yet to figure out exactly why. Whatever time it says, it is not 4:14 am and I am just unable to sleep.

It is a wonderful night for it. Tis pouring rain outside and you can feel the temp drop as the storms move in. Light snow showers are to grace us here in a few days and My heart is awaiting in patiently.

I hate nights like this. When your body just wants to sleep and your mind says otherwise. I must have stared at the ceiling for more then an hour. My body wanted to just soak itself deep into My satin sheets but My eyes open and awake.



I opened the french doors off of My room and layed sideways on top of the sheets. Slipping My jammies off to cool off thinking perhaps it was just too stuffy in there. Did not work.



Yet I did lay and enjoy what moon peeked through the storm clouds and lit up My room.
A million thoughts rushing into My head and over My body, mirroring the rain hitting the grass outside.

I tried a hot cup of tea. Making it boiling hot so it would cool as I ran My bath, hopped in, soaked and lightly dried off. Pulling the covers over My body, sipping My tea.

Sleep did not come.

I tried fulfilling My urges... alone yet again. Cumming time and time again.



Sleep did not come.

I sorted through My toybag. Walking through memory lane as I took out each thing.

Sleep did not come.

I lit a candle and grabbed a book. Read for nearly an hour. Thinking perhaps it would make My eyes tired enough to shut.



Sleep did not come.

I wrote in My paper journal for the second time today. My aches, needs and urges spilling out on burnt edged paper. My eyes welling, My heart racing, My body aching.

Sleep did not come.

I grabbed My meditation mat and sat My bottom down. Taking Myself off to somewhere far away with someone I loved.

Sleep did not come.

I went through writing down what herbs I needed. What essential oils were low. What candles needed to be restocked.

Sleep did not come.

I am not really sure exactly why sleep did not kiss Me tonight. Perhaps My aches are just too deep. Perhaps the urges of need, much to strong.

So here I am. Writing again. Digging through a million pictures to post to pass the time.

My urges and desires running hot. Melting everything around Me and I can smell the lust burning from within. I want to be filled. Full of what I need and want. I know that they will run until I have that taste. That need filled to the brim of Me.



I have never been one of those Women, Dominant or not, who denies who and what She is. I know I am raw, open, vulnerable at times. I like it that way. There are not many people who understand it, yet it is Me. I would say to you if you do not like it then eat Me.

Yet I may just like it! Alright, who the hell am I kidding? I want it.

Anywho....

Whatever the case may be, I am praying to the Goddess's that I get a nap sometime today or I am gonna be one bitchy Domme.

Everyone keeps asking Me what is up with the mary janes. I have the cutest school girl outfit, yet no shoes to go with it!

Adding just one more boot to My wishlist.

Boot


Onto another subject.

Was in the car this evening, doing some of My errands and although I had heard this song come on before I never really minded much attention to it.

Yet tonight as I was driving, it hit Me really hard.

We do it all
Everything on our own
We do not need anything
Or
Anyone
If I just lay here
Will you lay with Me
Forget about the world?
I do not quite know
To say how I feel
Three words
Said to much
Yet for Me
Not enough
Forget what we are told
Before we get to old
Show Me a garden that is bursting into life.
Lets waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind Me to find My own

Sighssss

Will write later.

I have had so many people who know My birthday is coming up ask Me what I want.

I always find it so hard to do that as I hate those "Money" Dommes. So I am just always so careful about it.


Yet, I am sick of people asking Me so here is a list of the things on My dream list.

Shoes
Size 8
shoes
More shoes
One More

Books--
Solitary Witch-SilverRavenWolf
Book



Fetish/toys
Toy
Toy
Toy
Toy

So there Y/ya'll get off My back would ya?

I woke this morning after a night of restless sleepy. Groggy and tired, I peeked out to see what Mother Earth had served us up today and found the grass lightly steaming from the temp drop through the night. Was a beautiful sight and quite a mirror in the way I feel this morning. Steaming, hot yet cold and groggy within Myself.

Today is supposed to be the warmest day of the week. Closing the weekend off with a beautiful dusting of snow and a high of 30. I love to watch the season change and record Mother Earths way of freezing everything in its path.

I am always amazed at how the weather and My moon intertwine as one. Such a steamy yet icy mood I feel in today. Sitting here typing this I can see the patio windows start to slowly warm from the inside out. What a lovely thought that is. Warming someone from the inside out. Defrosting their heart just a bit and making a warmth overcome them.

I am listening to this song this morning and wanted to type the lyrics. It is a beautiful song.

Something in your eyes
Makes Me want to lose Myself
Makes Me want to lost Myself
In your arms
Something in your voice
Makes My heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
For the rest of My life
If you knew
How lonely My life has been
How long I have been so alone
If you knew I wanted someone to call My own
To change My life
Feels like home to Me
Feels like I all the way back where I come from
A window breaks
Down a long dark street
A siren spins in the night
I am alright
I have you here with Me
I can almost see
Through the dark there is light

I have always loved that song. Most of My morning are spent with coffee and a song or two. Is there a better way?

The moon is in full glory tonight. Its traces of water around it are clearly streaked underneath of it and its trouble ring so beautifully hanging as if you could swing from it all through the night.

I have My french doors to My bedroom slightly open enough so that the chilly breeze kisses My toes and it puts My mind and heart a bit more at ease then it has been. Nights like this when the moon is full and the breeze is cold My heart aches. My body shivers, not from the weather but from what it lacks.


Aching, Needing and Wanting are not bad things. They are things that allow U/us to see that W/we are still alive. They allow us to see that there are still those things inside of us that crave. Allows our skin to burn and sweat. Our minds to wonder and think. I think far too often in this world W/we do not allow ourselves to explore those dark places. W/we allow others to dictate what is considered "wrong" or "odd"

I am not the norm. I do not follow the grain. There is a drummer in My head beating a different tune then the rest of the world and I am okay with that.

Does it make life any easier? No.
For when You are different, darker, raw, open, You leave Yourself open for others to climb in and snatch what they want from You.

Yet I have to be open. If I am not open to everything around Me, for I will not survive.

*Deep Breath*

Nights like this make the words flow out of Me like the finest vintage wine in the cellar.

Sleep well kiddles and Blessed be to the Goddess Moon, that hangs so beautifully in the sky. Making there be daylight in the deepest of night.

The morning is filled with air chilly enough that it smacks you in the face as soon as you hit the door. There could be nothing better then feeling that cold on your face first thing bright and early.

It is beautiful outside.

The dreams I have been having lately have been very dark in nature. Wonderful dreams that wake Me in a sweat with the sheets soaking wet from the night filled with images that are so real I almost think that I can reach out and touch them.

The dream I had last night was in an old warehouse. There was very little light shining through. It was just the almost full moon making the shadows a bit easier to see. It was filled with desire, ache, want and the sudden need to make Myself be shown. I was taking what I wanted from a bound up submissive and was filled with lust and want. Whispers of "Yes Mistress", still linger in My head.

If only I knew what everything represented. If I was able to tap into them and find out what message they are sending Me. It was a lovely dream. Taking what I need and getting what I want.

The ache and need I have at this moment. In this chilly morning is almost unbearable. It makes My head spin, My heart beat just a bit faster and allows Me to focus on every single breath that escapes My body.

I think it becomes a "must" when you call feel that need in every single moment of the night and day.

I would lie if I sat here and said those dreams and daydreams do not affect Me. For they do. The reach the top of My head and fill it with ideas and thoughts. Touching My belly and making it flop and swirl. Making My cunt ache and finish reaching the bottom on each toe making them curl with the mere thought of finally getting it.

I have always believed that patience is one of My strongest suites. Yet this morning, as I look around, patience is not near. And I think I like it that way.
It is making Me antsy and unable to sit still. Making Me squirm a bit in My chair and My body quiver. The yearnings are fresh, new and need to be fulfilled.


Oh how I like mornings like this. For many, many different reasons.

*Insert Evil Grin Here*

Blessed be kiddles

I woke up growling outloud this morning as My bedroom windows were slightly open and I did not feel a chill in the room. Instead I felt warmth and a sudden muggy feeling in the air.

Only to open the french doors that keep My room from the outside to feel the warm, muggy weather. It pissed Me off instantly, so I am guessing My day is not going to be as good as I would have liked it to be. I enjoy opening the doors in the morning and feeling the chill hit you in the face. My favorite thing to do in the morning is sit on the rock steps that go down under My doors and have My morning coffee. My robe around My shoulders just watching the birds eat breakfast.

Yet this morning I sat there playing with the small pebbles on the step with My toes praying for the coolness to show itself.

I have very few neighbors. The nearest neighbor is about a mile and a half northwest of Me. An older gentleman in his late 80's who still farms as much as he can. About a year ago he lost his wife to a heartattack and these days I see him less then I used to. This morning he brought Me a bag of greenbeans and corn from his farm and sat down with Me as I got him a cup of coffee. We sat there talking for awhile and I asked him what is the secret to true happiness.

He sat there for awhile, sipped his coffee and stood up. With a gentle kiss on My forhead he simply said this.

"I know you go through life Miss H but Someday you will find the one thing that will go through you."

As he left I noticed tears fill in My eyes. I suppose he is right. I go through so much yet I still believe I will find that someone that will go through Me.

Blessed be,
Goddess Isis Moon

My mind has clearly been in the sexual gutter as of late. Not in a bad way of course but in a good way. Where My thoughts are leaning toward the dark and raw side. I have those thoughts often but lately they seem to be just a bit darker and just a bit more raw then usual. I love the word raw. It makes Me shutter everytime I hear it. For My explaining why I love that word, I can't. I just know that I love it. Animalistic.
Word of advice....
Don't feed the animal unless you plan to make her full.

Evil grin and wink.

With that said I have also felt a bit off center. As if I am teetering between sanity and being insaine. My sleep has not come as much as I would like it to and I am not really sure exactly what it is that is keeping Me from My slumber. I am sure it will rear its ugly head and show itself when it is supposed to.

When I am able to sleep soundly My dreams too, are very raw and real. I am sure a lot of it is due to the cravings that I have in My heart, My mind and the very core of My belly. I feel antsy and unable to sit still. Some of these cravings have become so strong that I know they need to be fulfilled... soon.

I went shoe shopping yesterday. Did I buy some cute shoes! Sadly, I spent way too much money and bought way too many shoes. Yet... come on! I love shoes!
Here they are.....






Aren't they just adorable?

Finally got My digital camera and dock figured out today. Hopefully in the next few days I will get some of the pictures taken I have promised Goddess A to take months and months ago.

So that is it for now.
Have a blessed day!

Goddess Moon Isis